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Jasper Greenwood-his badly decomposed body was found next to his car in Vicksburg, Mississippi in June 1964-Closed Case under the Civil Rights Division Emmett Till Act
2020.09.11 18:52 trifletrufflesJasper Greenwood-his badly decomposed body was found next to his car in Vicksburg, Mississippi in June 1964-Closed Case under the Civil Rights Division Emmett Till Act
On June 29, 1964, the badly decomposed body of Jasper Greenwood was found next to his car on a “lover’s lane,” about 100 yards off of Main Street in Vicksburg, Mississippi. One of the Jasper's family members reported him missing to the Vicksburg Police Department on June 21, 1964. According to a June 30, 1964 article in the Vicksburg Evening Post, no weapon was found near the Jasper's body. Additionally, a purse containing about $61 was found in Jasper's car which likely ruled out the possibility that he was killed during a robbery. As a result of the body’s condition, a coroner’s inquest could not determine the cause of death. 1964 FBI Investigation: The FBI first opened the matter on June 30, 1964 after receiving a complaint from [name redacted] of the Jackson, Mississippi, Council of Federal Organizations. [Name redacted] told the FBI that Jasper had been found dead in a field on Main Street by two children. According to [name redacted], Jasper had last been seen alive leaving Jasper Lounge (a business he managed) with two white men on June 21, 1964. [Name redacted] noted that Jasper was not active in the civil rights movement or voter registration drives. However, Jasper's [relationship redacted in the closing memorandum] at one time babysat for Medgar Evers’ family. Additionally, on June 30, 1964, [Name Redacted 2] of the Student Non-Violent Coordinating Committee (SNCC) also contacted the FBI and relayed similar information. On June 30, 1964, Vicksburg Police Department (VPD) Chief Murray Sills informed the FBI that Jasper had been reported missing to the VPD on June 21. Jasper’s body was found at about 3:10 p.m. on June 29 by two boys. Jasper was found lying next to his car; the car was parked on a “lover’s lane” about 100 yards east of Main Street in Vicksburg. Jasper's body was too severely decomposed to allow for an autopsy, and the coroner could not ascertain Jasper's cause of death. According to Chief Sills, VPD investigators determined that Jasper had last been seen with a married African-American woman sometime between 1:00 and 2:00 a.m. on June 21, 1964. Chief Sills did not identify the woman to the FBI, but presumably knew who she was since he stated that [name redacted] "had been developed as a logical suspect" because [name redacted] had reportedly previously threatened Jasper for dating the woman. Chief Sills stated that both the woman and [name redacted] had disappeared. On July 4, 1964, Chief Sills contacted the FBI and stated that the VPD had arrested Flossie Lee Minor on July 3. According to Chief Sills, Flossie admitted that she had gone with Jasper to “lover’s lane for a tryst." At some point, Jasper fell to the ground unconscious. When Flossie was not able to resuscitate Jasper, she fled the area. Flossie said that Jasper had apparently died of a heart attack and denied that there had been any foul play. The FBI was contacted on July 31, 1964, by Dick Corigan, a reporter for the Washington Post, who received information from [name redacted] saying that Jasper's body reportedly had what appeared to be a bullet wound in his chest.The FBI interviewed [name redacted] who was in Vicksburg at the end of June 1964, and heard about Jasper's death. [Name redacted] then visited the Jasper's [relationship redacted]. Jasper's [relationship redacted] told [name redacted] that Jasper had been missing for about a week and had reportedly died of a heart attack. [Relationship redacted] mentioned she had not been allowed to see Jasper's body because it was too decomposed. Jasper's family had not requested an autopsy and "was undecided as to its necessity." When questioned about Jasper's civil rights activities, [relationship redacted] provided no information other than to say that he was a registered voter. [Name redacted] recalled that a [redacted employee of the funeral home] that prepared Jasper's body for burial arrived at the [relationship redacted]'s residence while [redacted name] was present. According to the redacted employee, while examining Jasper's body, he noticed a hole at the base of Jasper's throat that could have been a stab or bullet wound. When asked whether he had reported the information to the police, the redacted employee said that he thought investigators already had the information and wanted to “keep it quiet;” it was [redacted name]'s understanding that the police report indicated that Jasper died of a heart attack. [Name redacted] told the FBI that he investigated the matter further and determined that Jasper was not a member of COFO or any related organization and had not been involved in any voter registration drives or other civil rights work. Similarly, Charles Evers, the NAACP’s Mississippi Field Director at the time, informed the FBI that Jasper was not active in voter registration drives or the civil rights movement. The FBI interviewed the redacted employee of the funeral home [same individual discussed in preceding paragraph]. According to the employee, a coroner’s inquest had been conducted at the site where Jasper's body was found. The employee did not conduct an inquest or examine Jasper's body. He stated that Jasper's body was in terrible condition and had significantly decomposed. The employee did see a hole at the base of Jasper's throat but the hole was full of small worms and he did not think it had been caused by stabbing or a bullet. The employee recalled being questioned by a man he thought was a member of the Greenwood family [Name redacted/same individual discussed in preceding paragraph] when he went to speak with the family about funeral arrangements. According to the employee, when [Name redacted] asked him whether he thought the hole in Jasper's throat had been caused by a bullet, he told [Name redacted] that he had no reason to believe that the hole had been caused by anything other than “nature and the worms.” 2009 Review: The FBI contacted various acquaintances and members of Jasper's family [all names redacted]. One family member stated Jasper's mother (now deceased) went to look for Jasper when he went missing. She and other family members searched as far as Jackson Road, which Jasper frequently used, but they did not find him. An acquaintance [name redacted] was interviewed by a Mississippi Attorney General’s Office (MAGO) investigator in March 2009. The acquaintance stated that, within hours of Jasper’s body being found, she was interviewed by a Warren County Sheriff’s Department (WCSD) deputy, at her place of employment, the Rockett Cab Company. The deputy told the acquaintance that she had been seen with Jasper that evening. She told the MAGO investigator that she worked the midnight shift at the cab company the entire weekend that Jasper went missing and she did not know why it was rumored that she had been with him at any time. The FBI conducted an online search for Flossie Minor, who reportedly witnessed Jasper's death, and located a record for a Flossie E. Minor who died on April 2, 2005 in Liberty, Missouri. The FBI obtained a copy of Jasper's death record from James E. Jefferson, Jr., Funeral Director for the W.H. Jefferson Funeral Home. The record stated that Jasper died on June 21, 1964. Jasper's cause of death was listed as “undetermined” with “unknown” contributory causes. The FBI contacted the MAGO and the Mississippi Department of Public Safety, but neither of those agencies had any records relevant to the Jasper's death. At the conclusion of the FBI's investigation, the Department of Justice concluded that this matter does not constitute a prosecutable violation of the federal criminal civil rights statutes as "neither the FBI’s 1964 nor its 2009 investigation uncovered sufficient evidence to contradict the reported results of the contemporaneous VPD investigation, i.e., that the victim died of a heart attack while in the company of an African-American woman." Accordingly, there is insufficient evidence that "a racially-motivated homicide occurred and, therefore, this matter lacks prosecutive merit and should be closed." Links: https://www.justice.gov/crt/case-document/jasper-greenwood-notice-close-file I came across the Department of Justice’s cold case initiative while reading an article discussing journalists’ efforts to install a billboard on an Arkansas highway aimed at solving the 1954 lynching of Isadore Banks. The Civil Rights Division of the United States Department of Justice launched a website (linked above) to make information about the department’s investigation of cold cases from the Civil Rights Era more accessible to the public. Over the years, the Department “has assisted in prosecuting Edgar Ray Killen in 2005, making him the eighth defendant convicted for the 1964 murders of three civil rights workers in Philadelphia, Mississippi (the "Mississippi Burning" case); secured life sentences in 2003 against the perpetrators of the 1963 Sixteenth Street Baptist Church bombing in Birmingham, Alabama; and secured a federal conviction and life sentence of James Ford Seale for the kidnapping and murder of two teenagers in Franklin County, Mississippi in 1964.” Congress recognized the importance of these federal efforts when it enacted the Emmett Till Unsolved Civil Rights Crime Act in 2008. Unfortunately, in many cases “legal and evidentiary barriers prevent the Department from moving forward with prosecution." In each case that is not prosecutable, the Department of Justice wrote a closing memo explaining the investigative steps taken and the basis for their conclusion. To date, the Department of Justice has uploaded 115 closing memos. I hope to be able to post on all of the closed cases as I share in the belief with the Department of Justice that “these stories should be told [as] there is value in a public reckoning with the history of racial violence and the complicity of government officials.” Other posts from the Department of Justice's Cold Case Initiative:
Isadore Banks-unsolved murder in Marion, Arkansas-June 1954
New deaths by county: 71 M Lincoln, 86 M Jefferson, 62 M Bell, 61 M Bullitt, 79 M Jefferson, 84 F Rowan, 77 M Bullitt, 76 M Garrard, 50 M Jefferson, 90 M Owen, 66 M Jefferson, 87 M Scott, 81 M Scott, 92 F Calloway, 70 F Jefferson, 94 F Fayette
Instead of the normal press conference tomorrow, I'm gonna be holding a direct address to the people of Kentucky, beginning at 5:30pm. We'll spend about 15 minutes, or a little less, talking over this loss, our fight to date, and how we must do, at least a little bit better, to make sure we come out of this crisis with as many of our family members with us.
This is for Dr. Stack: the vaccine today, one of the manufacturers, maybe has seen some failures in their vaccines. Everyone is taking a definite stance on this, can you explain that this is kinda normal? -- So one of the vaccine manufacturers announced a pause on their phase 3 trial. This is one of the challenges when so much attention is given to what is normal science. So I don't know why they did the pause, I don't know what the event was that triggered it. We'll find out over time. But this is why we have to methodically go through these steps. It’s because we're doing complicated science and we're using that science to help bolster someone's immune system so that it can fight an infection which has crippled the world. And it's very important that we get that right. Vaccines are one of modern science’s true marvels. They have prevented 10s if not hundreds of millions of deaths, over the years, from preventable communicable diseases. And so for this, whatever the reason was, some person in the study must have had an unexpected development, or someone thought someone had an unexpected development, and because of that there are safety mechanisms in place and so they will stop administering the vaccine to new people, until they figure that out. They have processes in place and safety review boards who will look at this independently and make a determination. So right now I would not overly read into this. This does not mean the vaccine’s not safe, it doesn't mean it's not effective, it just means that the normal safety mechanisms in place are doing what they're supposed to. As the researchers find out what was the cause I'm sure they'll update us and we'll know. But I think here in Kentucky we'll make sure we tell you, when we have confidence that any vaccine approved and that we participate in distributing it, is one we have confidence in is safe for people in Kentucky.
I have a question about people contacting news stations wanting to know when they're going to start receiving the extra $400. -- We ought to have an announcement on that late this week or early next week, I think at the latest. We want to make sure that we have the entire system up and running, that we don't run into additional complications trying to have learned lessons from the past, but remember you're going to be able to apply all the way going back, until when the last supplement ran out.
Gov: There's a question of what is the status of reopening unemployment offices across the state, and what processes need to be completed before this can be done? -- Two things: number one, we’ve got to get caught up, most important thing. If we deploy folks to various offices before we get caught up with all further behind. And number two, we've got to be able to do it in a way that we believe is reasonably safe and protects those employees from COVID-19. I want to make sure that when we move people out we don't hurt the efficiency, overall, we're going to get there.
Good evening, tonight and tomorrow, are gonna look a little different. They're gonna look a little different because we've hit a tough and unfortunate milestone today in Kentucky. So tonight, I'm not going to provide some positive news on investments we're making, even though we're making them. And I'm not going to show positive social media people doing the right things, even though we need to encourage it. That's because tonight, we have the painful news that we have now lost over 1,000 Kentuckians: Our mothers and fathers, grandfathers and grandmothers, sisters, brothers, neighbors to COVID-19. Over 1000 Kentuckians are no longer with us, because of a virus that had its first case in Kentucky, just six months ago. Compared to most other states, that number of casualties is fairly low. And that's a testament to the people of Kentucky and the actions that they've taken. New York has lost over 33,000 of its residents; Florida, nearly 12,000; Ohio, over 4000. Indiana's nearing 3,400 and Mississippi, nearly 2600. But it's hard to be proud we're excited about the news that we've lost over 1000 of our citizens, all special people. Anything over the last six months we've had over 1000 families, going through something that's far far too hard, and not being able to do it in that normal way for funerals of families being able to get together to grieve. To honor these individuals and their grieving families, we're going to have another wreath hanging ceremony by the Kentucky State Police Honor Guard tomorrow morning at 10am here in the rotunda. We will be live streaming it, the media will be invited to film it from upstairs. It'll be an opportunity for those families, for all Kentuckians, to express the pain and the grief that we feel, but also to honor those here in one of our most sacred buildings and in this rotunda those that have been lost. We will ring bells at that time. I will pray my personal prayer at that time, while watching. And I hope, as many of you as possible will either watch or recognize this very difficult milestone in a way that you believe is appropriate.
Starting tomorrow morning I'm also ordering all flags on state buildings in the Commonwealth to fly at half-staff for the next week to recognize again those more than thousand Kentuckians we have lost.
Finally, instead of the normal press conference tomorrow, I'm gonna be holding a direct address to the people of Kentucky, beginning at 5:30pm. We'll spend about 15 minutes, or a little less, talking over this loss, our fight to date, and how we must do, at least a little bit better, to make sure we come out of this crisis with as many of our family members with us. That we come out in a way where we can be proud of what we have done and how we have faced this very difficult disease. Again, compared to most states, we've done well, but lives are on the line and too many have been lost. We absolutely have to do better. So tonight, I'm going to go directly into our COVID presentation, give you a little news from the most recent White House report. Give our report, and then Dr Stack will speak and we'll answer questions. And tomorrow our flags will be at half staff, we’ll be having this wreath laying ceremony, and have the direct address at 5:30.
So moving into our COVID presentation I want to start with the White House's weekly report. It came out a little later this week because of the long weekend. But I want to make sure we start with the very first page because we have a Supreme Court argument coming up where the Attorney General and some others want to eliminate all the rules and and regulations that are helping to keep us safe, that have us in that better place than New York or Florida or others, and would undo, would undo, not just those rules and regulations that keep us safe but the ability for our schools to have dollars flowing to them for when they did NTI at the end of last year, or when they have to right now. It would undo the worker's comp that our first responders get when they develop COVID or have to quarantine. And I just want to point out one thing to start in this White House report because one of the things that's directly being challenged in that case is our mask mandate. But this is the report that comes directly from the Trump administration. And this is a direct sentence of their advice to us: “Keep mask requirement in place statewide”. There is no room between what the experts at the federal level or at the state level know we need to do. That there needs to be a mask requirement, and it needs to be statewide. If you don't like that I've put it out there that's directly from the President's administration. And that has been in every report that we have received. If you look on the next couple pages of it, and it is up on our website, it shows you their view of counties that are in the red , or in the yellow we're going to keep showing these to you, this is us being transparent. Again a significant number of counties in the red starting with Warren, including Madison, Pulaski, Calloway, Green, Nelson, Jackson, Todd, Henderson. Lewis, Rowan, Logan, Bell, Grayson, Simpson, Union, Harlan, Monroe, McCreary, Russell, Mason, Crittenden, Trigg, and Estill. This is the highest concern level of the W hite House. Again, you may want to argue with us about different designations that we have. This is coming directly from the Trump administration. Next one is the yellow counties, those that should be concerned, aren't in the red, but again taking mitigation steps. Now next week we're going to unveil a tool that gives some county by county information specifically designed for our school systems. Dr Stack is going to walk us through that on Monday, as well as various reporting systems where parents can get online and see at least daily about what's going on in their area at their school with the idea that they can make their decision, if necessary, day by day about the safety of their children. But our goal is to provide as much information as often as we can. And that comes directly from the White House, something to notice from those last two is they still have over 50% of our counties in either the red or the yellow. That's one of the reasons that they believe that statewide steps are still necessary.
So today's COVID report.
Positive cases today: 667
Probable cases: 5,378
Total confirmed cases: 53,977 - So tomorrow we will expect to go over 54,000 in a positive piece of news.
No county is immune. The White House report if you look at that first page it also says, COVID in Kentucky is rural and urban. So let's not ever think that it's not here, it's just somewhere else. We have 1000 families who would tell you that they probably thought it would be somewhere else. And it ended up being right there with them and their loved one, are losses today.
Total tests conducted: 937,153 (PCR: 872,912, Serology: 47,912) - we're going to see that here pretty soon. Many days we have 8000 plus in a day. Go over a million that's hard to believe when we look back at the journey that we have been.
Positivity Rate: 3.84% - For the second day in a row. Our positivity rate is below four at 3.84%. This is exactly why we were asking for more time before taking steps like in person classes in school. Remember we were at almost 6%, to push it down, and to try to keep it down. Now I believe later in the week with a number of cases that are likely to come in with the labs coming off of the long weekend that we may see that creep back up over four, but every day there's in the low fours, or down in the threes is a good sign for Kentuckians. But even with that we know with a virus that has a mortality rate of around 2%- 600 cases is still going to cause a lot of pain, and a lot of loss. And we want to do better.
Total hospitalized: 4,777
Currently hospitalized: 558
Total in ICU: 1,427
Currently in ICU: 153
On a ventilator: 76
Total recovered: 10,725
New deaths today: 16 - 16 new deaths put us over that thousand loss number. In fact, it puts us up to 1,004. And when we started this journey the initial models had lost that at a- when I looked at it, what I thought was a devastating level, but I can tell you, losing 1,000 Kentuckians to something like this, that's more than we lost in either Vietnam or the Korean War, feels pretty devastating. That doesn't mean that given the opponent that we're facing, that we have not done a good job. It just means we have to recognize how much this hurts, those around us and we've got one story today that, I think, shows that.
Total Deaths: 1,013
New deaths by county: 71 M Lincoln, 86 M Jefferson, 62 M Bell, 61 M Bullitt, 79 M Jefferson, 84 F Rowan, 77 M Bullitt, 76 M Garrard, 50 M Jefferson, 90 M Owen, 66 M Jefferson, 87 M Scott, 81 M Scott, 92 F Calloway, 70 F Jefferson, 94 F Fayette
All losses are a loss for Kentucky. Let’s light those houses up green and let’s ring those bells at 10am. This is a reminder that we are thinking of the Kentuckians we’ve lost, their families, and their communities. It’s the color of compassion and renewal as their souls move from their bodies to a better place.
Racial breakdown of all cases: 79.98% Caucasian, 12.01% Black or African-American, 1.72% Asian, 5.76% Multiracial
Ethnicity breakdown of all cases: 88.04% non-Hispanic and 11.96% Hispanic
Racial breakdown of all deaths: 83.62% Caucasian, 12.93% Black or African-American, 1.19% Asian, 2.26% Multiracial
Ethnicity breakdown of all deaths: 96.30% non-Hispanic and 3.70% Hispanic
K-12 Update (PDF): Not covered in the update but the PDF was updated
University Update (PDF): Not covered in the update but the PDF was updated
I want you to think about that list. We got a 50 year old on it. We have multiple 60 year olds on it. A number of people like my parents in their 70s, I'm not going to consider that old because I want a lot more time with them, and with them and my kids. Each one of these people is so much more than just what we read off. I mean they're one of us, or one of us. And no matter how old they were, they deserve time. And no matter what other complicating health factors that they had, this played a part in it. And we owe it to them to work hard to make sure that we limit the future casualties that we have. I'll tell you about one of those today. And it happened just yesterday. Just yesterday, we lost E.J. Mike. A 58 year old frontline worker. I didn't realize until the picture that I've met E.J. Mike before. He was a physician's assistant at the Louisville VA Medical Center. But more importantly, he was a loving father to his twin girls, now only 13 years old. E.J. fought hard for six weeks at Norton-Brownsboro, during which time he was on a ventilator. We learned a E.J.’s fight just an hour after his passing yesterday. We spoke to a friend and read online messages from co-workers and loved ones called E.J. an inspiration and an amazing person who always put others before himself. We've talked to other family members throughout today. Our thoughts and prayers are with his two daughters, his family, friends, and the community he built at the Louisville VA. So today, I will wear my mask in honor of E.J. Mike- we must remember every single one of these thousand and four losses, is an E.J.- is somebody whose kids, parents, friends, love them just like his two 13 year old daughters love him.
I've asked Dr Stack to come up to talk a little bit to us, and then we'll open it up for questions. And that again, today's a little different, and tomorrow's gonna be a little different too.
Dr. Stack: Thank you Governor, and good afternoon everyone. I have an extended chance on Monday to talk at length and show pictures and stuff today, I'll just use words. So when we cross over 1,000 people who have died from COVID-19 in Kentucky- I think getting our head around these numbers is sometimes challenging so I'm going to try to do this in a few different ways.
In the United States of America, in roughly the last six months more than 190,000 Americans have died from COVID-19. And to put that in context, the city of Louisville is about 620,000 or so persons- and so it's like 30% of the city of Louisville has died in the last six months across the country. If we want to go and look in a different way, in the state- in the state of New York 33,000 people nearly have died in the last six months, the city of Bowling Green, Kentucky is about 70,000 persons per the 2019 census data- so about, if Bowling Green City and here in Kentucky were New York State, half of that city would have died in the last six months just to put that in context. Now, people talk about the numbers and, you know, where they're inconsistent or their accuracy- deaths are pretty clear. And so using the most concrete demonstration we can to the impact of the illness, the implications in the United States of America are substantial and profound. Now in Kentucky today, we crossed over a big milestone with over 1000 Kentuckians who have lost their lives from the coronavirus. And that's a tragedy and it's a tragedy for their families. It's a smaller tragedy than we might have otherwise had, had we not taken the steps over the last six months, we would have had much larger totals like they've had in other states and in other areas. So I'm very grateful that we've had the opportunity to blunt the harm- but the harm that's happened is substantial nonetheless, in terms of the loss of human life, the others who are still recovering from the illness, and then of course all the other consequences that have unfolded from the coronavirus. It's been a while since I've been able to sort of make the governor laugh maybe with some of my historical references so in English poet named John Donne has a poem, “For Whom the Bell Tolls” and he talks in it about “no man is an island/no person is an island/we're all interconnected with each other.” And the last line is “Ask not For Whom the Bell Tolls/the bell tolls for thee.” I'm gonna just use another example, I try to use props- when I have them handy, to kind of make these points so I, my mask here today is from Holy Cross College- that's where I went to school, and I've mentioned that before, we're all pretty connected to each other. So another physician in this country that most people know Dr. Fauci, and I are both alums from Holy Cross College. We are probably separated by about 30 years. Dr. Fauci, of course, is a senior physician leader, helping to advise during the coronavirus epidemic and here I have the privilege to do the same here in Kentucky. Dr. Fauci also has the incredible distinction of also having been a classics major, like I was and so you have two people separated by multiple generations who have never met in person, and who share so much in common. And when you think about the over 1,000 people who have died from coronavirus in the state, I've asked you just to contemplate and put in perspective, you're probably closer to them than you realize. And so these steps that we take- these difficult steps- that have been hard to decide upon at times, difficult to execute, and I know we've asked a lot of team Kentucky, these difficult steps are important people's lives, people's families, really rely upon them. So, thank you, as we've gone through this journey I know it's not been easy, it's not been easy on any of you at home, it's not been easy on those of us trying to do the best we can to navigate through these uncertain times but thank you for being part of Team Kentucky. Thanks for working with us and thanks for continuing to work with us. I know we're all tired, we all want to break, and we all want to get back to normal. But, but the struggle is not yet over, we can look to next year and hope for better times. But until then, we are all in this together. And if we love each other and take care of each other and look out for each other we have a much better chance of getting through this and emerging stronger on the other end, still remains a privilege to serve and Thank you Governor for the opportunity.
Governor: Alright, we'll move into Questions
So as we cross this somber milestone, we have also learned- what the President knew, and when he knew it, about the virus. The Bob Woodward tapes were revealed today, in it, the President can be heard as early as February, acknowledging the deadly disease. He knew it was airborne, and he knew it didn't affect just old people, it was more serious. A month later in March, he told Bob Woodward that he was deliberately downplaying it. As to not incite a panic. Meanwhile he was also holding rallies. Do you as a governor who worked closely with the White House, feel misled by the President? Do you think the president misled Kentuckians and Americans? -- The question appears to be based on information that came out today from Bob Woodward- I haven't read any of it. And so at this point I don't believe I can comment on it. I believe that we have had a good working relationship with the White House. It doesn't mean I've always agreed with every decision they've made, but I do believe that we have had a positive working relationship. We've done some things differently here in Kentucky. That's because, ultimately, I'm not going to pass the buck, the responsibility does fall with me. But having not seen any of that information I'm not in a place to comment on it.
So can you put it in context? When this started six months ago, you were talking about maybe thousands of deaths -- Putting 1000 deaths in context… And I'll talk about what we thought might happen in COVID, but I mean losing 1000 people to something that didn't previously exist in a six month period is hard, and as something most of us have never experienced before. When you look at anything else that kills that many people in that amount of time. Now hopefully we have, we all agree that it is a crisis and must be addressed. Now there's a likelihood that our deaths from COVID will exceed our overdose deaths this year, and I hope we all recognize that there's an addiction crisis out there that we, we can and must address. There was a period of time, early on, where experts judging on the Spanish flu and again, having never dealt with this virus, entirely new, thought we'd be looking at 10s of thousands of deaths. And I'll tell you that was a time when my job was to call for calm. I’d walk back into my office and look at projections that made it even tough to talk to people, to pick up a phone, knowing what was possible, and could have been possible. But there was also a time where we thought our outcome might even be under what we have passed now, based on the time in late March, and early April, primarily early April. What this says is the amount of loss that we're going to experience depends on us. Nobody else, it depends on us. And it depends on each and every one of us. One individual not making the right decision can cause our casualties to rise. I don't remember another time where we've all been tested where if one member of the state potentially doesn't step up and do their part, others are harmed, how well we're going to do and how we're going to come out of this depends on on us.
With these numbers of cases, are you concerned that people aren’t doing what they should be? -- Question is depending on the number of cases, am I concerned that people aren't doing what they need to be doing. Well first, I am deeply grateful, that's what Dr Stack always says, but I'm deeply grateful to the people of Kentucky for their work this thus far. You look at almost any other state, and you look at what happened in Florida, Texas, Alabama, South Carolina, and Arizona and us having appeared to have stopped it. You look at the first surge, and what we are able to do being Healthy at Home. You know the people of Kentucky, more so than just about anywhere else, have stepped up and have done what it takes. My worry is that people get tired and that we miss so many things and we now realize how much we miss them. I remember thinking kids, and sometimes even my kids, were always on electronics, and they weren't connecting enough and now we're seeing how connected we truly are, and how much we miss personal connections. My fear is that, like, the start of summer, up to the fifth of July, that we may be seeing a period starting in late August, where we let our guard down, where we have fatigue. And what happens is a rise in cases and when cases rise so do deaths. Now I think that's natural, and it's happened in a lot of places, but my job is to do everything I can to encourage the people of Kentucky and try to put the right type of rules and restrictions in place that enough people will follow to lessen that damage. Because it's hard for people to conceptualize, it's hard for me too, that if I get up on this day and I say I'm just I'm just not doing this anymore, and I miss having a block party where we get everybody in the neighborhood together because it was so fun, and the bouncy with the kids, that that somebody probably I don't know and that I will never meet could pay the ultimate price for that. That it could shut down the school system that might otherwise be open in another county. It's really hard to view something so small as “stand six feet away from somebody” or “putting on a mask” when you could be asymptomatic as causing such significant potential harms. Knowing that, while the possibility may be small, there's so many of us out there that could be asymptomatic that it's happening every day at such frequencies. And I just think that it's important to have a reminder, but also losing 1,000 people ought to kick us all up in the butt. Or maybe in the gut. And we ought to recognize that we don't, we don't want to lose 1000 more and do what it takes.
Is the state still looking for more people to engage in the Contact Tracing? -- We’ll have an update next week, we'll bring it in on contact tracing. I think we are. I know we're over 600, I think we were approaching 1,000 contact tracers. We've reached significant capacity and our local health departments are working so hard, especially with us moving towards reopening schools and it's never going to be more important to do it quickly than then then. I believe our contact tracers are working as hard as they can. But if we can't keep our overall numbers to a reasonable level, there's just too much volume to do all the contact tracing. And at that point, we're gonna have to make decisions about what comes first. A lot of that's gonna have to be school-based, and long term care facility based, but our job in keeping the cases down helps the context tracers do their jobs.
I have a question about people contacting news stations wanting to know when they're going to start receiving the extra $400. -- We ought to have an announcement on that late this week or early next week, I think at the latest. We want to make sure that we have the entire system up and running, that we don't run into additional complications trying to have learned lessons from the past, but remember you're going to be able to apply all the way going back, until when the last supplement ran out. So I know nobody is missing out, ultimately, on those dollars but I know people need them quickly. And tomorrow, I think we'll talk about, I believe, overall the state doing a good job in some areas needing to do better, of trying to help people and that's everything from unemployment, to Medicaid, to SNAP, to the Team Kentucky Fund, to the new eviction fund, to some others that we hope will be coming out, trying to be there for each other during this period and I hope that encourages everybody else to be there for each other too
Yesterday you mentioned that the fatalities were being reviewed, does that include the 16 today? -- The number being reviewed by our committee yesterday, that included at least 18, not all of them are on today, some of them are more complicated. They also wait for records to come in, but it ought to tell people about the work that we put into this data. It's not always going to be perfect because of volume and because of numbers of directions things are coming in. But our department for public health and our local health departments put in a ton of work to try to make it as accurate as possible. And the fact that we know that there are likely COVID related deaths out there that haven't been reported means that we are going through the process to be as accurate as we can. Remember, obviously want to argue that these deaths aren't real, they're all real people. And they're being reported in the way the federal government tells us to, but in fact we're going that extra mile to make sure that COVID was a contributing factor.
How did yesterday’s meeting with the Black Caucus go? Where's the progress, or where is the situation at, with the possibility of a special session being called?-- So yesterday I met with Kentucky’s Legislative Caucus, it was a very productive meeting, to be able to hear their ideas on what would make a special session worth it. It's pretty clear to me that it has to be a chance for real progress in the various areas, and not simply window dressing, and I agree with that. If we're gonna call people in to a special session at $60,000 a day we better get something real done. And I think people want to see real progress. I got to listen to specific ideas and got to ask questions. I think it was a very productive meeting and I hope that the caucus believes so too.
Some experts have recommended that colleges keep students on campus even with an outbreak? Has the state in the event of a shutdown? -- So the question is on college campuses and it works in with a question I have from Murray as well and so I'll answer, it’s a two part question. 1. Am I concerned about the rising number of cases on college campuses in the state and 2. How do I feel about some experts suggesting that colleges keep kids, young adults, on campus as opposed to sending them home. -- Yes, I am concerned about the rising number of cases on college campuses. I'm concerned because at some point we're gonna have to prove whether we can or can't do this. That's separate from the question of what to do with an outbreak right now versus at this moment, without a vaccine, can we reasonably do this without knowing that there's going to be outbreaks. Is it possible and are we being reasonable as decision makers to believe that this many college kids can come together and not do things that will spread the virus. We’ve got to really think through that I know people are trying really hard but we also have to think about what's reasonable. On whether or not students should be sent home, it's complicated and there are difficulties on both sides. First, if they are not going to be sent home you've got to remove them from a large dorm complex, a place that has people that are potentially negative, and so that adds a little bit of stress. You're moving a college kid out of a place that they feel safe and were excited to go to possibly to a hotel and saying, you got to be in here for X number of days, let's realize that that's that's not easy. What that does, on the positive side, is keep that student from going back to a community, and potentially spreading the virus from there. What it doesn't do, is to provide the oversight the parents would have if they went home, about not going out, breaking whatever rule, because it would be hard when I was 19 to 22 to sit in a hotel room and not see anybody for 10 straight days. And so I think you have positives and negatives on both sides. I just think that we've got to be really thoughtful as we go and we've got to figure out what the threshold is of when those major decisions have to be made. I know that our universities are thinking through those, but for a university I don't think it can be based on deaths, it certainly shouldn't, we don't want to lose any students or faculty. It shouldn't be based on how many people we have in an ICU or a ventilator, we don't want any students or faculty on that. So it's got to be based on something else where we say that we have just hit the level where it's not working, and we don't want to continue to to see increased caseloads. But I do think we really ought to continue to think as we watch what happens, whether or not our expectations that we set for students are reasonable.
2020.09.03 18:58 RaeKay14I listened to Emma Mae Jenkin’s podcast so you don’t have to.
Buckle up, this is a long post. TLDR: Ugh. More specifically, I listened to Episode 1, 4, 5, and 10. Episode 1: “My Story” (24 Minutes) · Her tagline seems to be “Faith comes by hearing, so grab your headphones and let’s dive into the Word”… seems idolatrous, comparing your podcast to faith itself. · Every thought is a million run-on sentences. The transcript of this must be an absolute nightmare. I have no idea how she ‘wrote’ 2 books. I’m not strong or brave enough to read them, that’s for damn sure. · Everything she deems as a good thing is described as ‘sweet’, and not in the skater-grunge ironic 90’s way. It’s the most bizarre adjective and sounds so weird · Testimony Time!! She’s 21… like damn, live a little before you tell your life story a. We will get to ‘walk alongside her’ during a year of being engaged. Kewl. Can’t wait. b. She talks about being ‘well-traveled’ in her life because she has lived in Alabama, Mississippi, Florida, and now Arkansas. AND goes to school in Virginia, what diversity of culture /s c. One time when she was 14, she was crying on her bed because she ‘held herself to too high a standard of perfection’ and her dad walked in to her room. His comforting words to a literal crying child was ‘when was the last time you had read your bible… when Jesus comes back I can’t help you, you’ll be responsible for yourself.’ But this is FINE and totally what any father should be doing because it helped her process her relationship with God. d. Her original Instagram name was ‘EmmaMaeJ99’ and she changed it so that people looking at her profile would have to be accosted with Bible stuff even if they don’t read her posts. I’m realizing the 99 is because that’s the year she was born, and I feel really old. e. And then 2 books happened, and I’m in College, and I have a podcast, and I have a ring on my finger!” Way to take all the borderline interesting parts and slap them together in half a sentence. f. She straight-up recites the KJV old-timey version of the Lord’s Prayer during her wrap-up. · So there is no ‘testimony’ or ‘story’ here besides a couple tidbits basically all written up above. Out of 24 minutes of content, it was 20 minutes of random bible verses thrown at you because ‘You are wonderfully made’ and God loves you. Just over, and over, and over with the Bible Verses. She’s got a good memory and can memorize shit, I’ll give her that much. But this wasn’t a testimony as much as a preaching session, but don’t call it that because of course women can’t preach, duh. But there’s literally no testimony to give because she grew up as a White, Southern, Christian, Middle-Class, Thin Girl and she’s never done anything actually bad in her life or experienced any kind of adversity so there’s no ‘come to Jesus’ time other than picking up a devotional book in middle school that she hadn’t been reading. Episode 4: “The Girls Standing By Me” (20 Minutes) · Yep, “If Faith comes by hearing, grab your headphones and let’s get into the Word”. What a weird intro. · THERE ARE 12 BRIDESMAIDS · She calls them the ’12 Divas’ and the ’12 Disciples’… uhhhhh ok. Who gets to be the Judas?? · And then, literally 5 verses in a row about friendship from the Bible. Just a preaching session about people influencing you and how they either bring you closer or further away from God. I’m sure she wishes pretty hard that she could be a pastor. · She did the invitation box thing for each bridesmaid and included chapstick, hand sanitizer, and bath bombs, with a letter to ‘affirm these girls’. This all is to apparently show them how much she values them, with not even $3 worth of gifts picked up at the dollar store. · One of the girls is a foreign exchange student from Switzerland who lived with them – this poor girl, not only having to live in Arkansas but compounded by living with this family. I can’t imagine how awful that school year was. She calls her ‘Swisster’. Kewl. · These girls are from ‘different seasons of her life’ – future sister-in-laws, middle school, college roommates, and her Maid of Honor has been her best friend since she was 16. Remember that was only FIVE YEARS AGO. Pretty sure this is the girl obsessed with her own freckles. a) It’s sO uNiQuE that her bridesmaids are in different seasons – some are married, some are dating, some single. Literally like every single wedding party of TWELVE PEOPLE ever, and ‘no one judges each other for being in different seasons or comparing seasons to each other’. The number of times she said the word ‘season’ is insane here – and literally no one would think that you are comparing or jealous of other ‘seasons’ unless you are actually judgmental of one of them… aka everyone looking down on the single girls. · Yep, more talking about Seasons and god leading us through every season and the ‘secret to being content is knowing that Christ gives you strength’. · This episode is supposed to be about her wedding party – she talked about them for all of 2 minutes in the vaguest of terms, and we’re now on minute 8 (of a 20-minute episode) talking about seasons. Just like Grift Defined, the obsession with singleness is INSANE. When you spend this long talking about how you don’t care, it only leads us to believe that you care very, very much and are so relieved to have snagged a guy. · Her ending is going through all the points again. Like, starting from the top of the episode and just saying the same shit over again but faster. That’s one way to hit your contracted 20-minute mark (I’m guessing, but they are all barely over 20 minutes so it makes sense). Episode 5: “Fun Q & A” (23 Minutes) · Apparently a lot of people hear “Emma Mae” and think “MMA” – which I hadn’t before, but damn well will in the future. “In the terms of a mixed martial artist… I am not that”. No shit LOL, that wouldn’t be ‘feminine’ enough. · Question 1: “What advice do you have for someone starting college” a) Apparently her advice is ‘Life is a mist’ because the only thing that matters is God. Again with the rapid-fire bible verses just one. after. another. b) Her other ‘little nugget’ is from her mom: “Make appointments with yourself”. So that you have an excuse to say no to people and can be honest about it, because god forbid anyone just say ‘no’ to people without having a reason because that is just way too selfish for a godly woman. c) She literally referred to her mom twice as ‘Momma J’ – IDK if it’s just because I didn’t grow up in the South, but I seriously don’t get this. Why not just say “My momma”. · Question 2: “What is your favorite color besides yellow” a) As she’s been decorating a room and planning a wedding, her other favorite colors are sage, blush, periwinkle, and lavender. So the cliché fundie pastel/washed out color scheme. Get ready for a REAL bland wedding. · Question 3: “Favorite things to do?” a) Reading, being with people, writing, working out, and “I cannot describe the joy that comes from teaching God’s Word” – “It’s so fun how sometimes he will encourage me”. So, just me or are none of these things actually fun? · Question 4: “Advice for single girls” oh for fuck’s sake. a) “I love this question because I was single for a long time” … She is TWENTY-ONE right now, and started dating her FRESHMAN YEAR OF COLLEGE. So she was single all of high school and that was a burden? But if we aren’t supposed to date until we can Court the person we will marry, she wouldn’t have been eligible until after high school so that can’t count. So really it was the beginning of college until Christmas break when (I think) they officially started dating?? So like maybe 5 months?? Girl Defined is shaking. b) “Being excited about getting married in the future is ok – it doesn’t mean that we aren’t present in our season of singleness”. Just, what. Ugh. The way they all act, I’m pretty sure they want to be as least present possible for their ‘single season’. As so many snarkers have said, get a Bumble Account and a vibrator, and their single season lives would be a million times better. My first kiss was at 22, first boyfriend at 25, and I'm 27 and unmarried - and I never felt 1/10th of the despair these fundies have felt being at 18 years old and not wifed-up yet. c) “When I was single I would be in tears praying to God for my future husband”. Girl. Have some self-respect. You are more than a ‘future wife’. Which you’d think she would know since she is an author, a youtuber, and now a podcaster. But as always, for these fundies nothing means anything without also being a wife. d) Guys, she had a breakthrough – she can be present in her season of engagement AND excited about a season of marriage!! It doesn’t ‘rob her joy’ to look forward to the future. Literally NO ONE THINKS THAT. Duh you are excited to be married, that’s literally what engagement is. IDK how you are excited to marry as bland a guy as Josh, but everybody has their own kinks. e) “Trust there is purpose for the season you are in” – another 3 minutes of bible verse after bible verse. The way she can just spit them out is impressive and also worrisome. Like, have your own thoughts – they don’t ALL have to be about God. You can be a good and godly person without god being the ONLY thing you talk about or think about. · Question 5: “What is your favorite Quarantine Snack” a) Hummus, Yogurt with Berries “I eat my weight in that”, and dark chocolate. How original and daring. · Question 6: “What is your perfect day?” a) A ‘long, slow morning’ where she can have time with God, wash her face, and get a workout. Isn’t that every morning? She’s a college student who doesn’t have a traditional job – she has to have SO much time on her hands. Washing her face is a luxury for slow mornings?!? Sure. b) “All throughout the day, hanging out with friends and family and getting to teach the Word”. Fun. I bet her friends LOVE hanging out with someone who won’t shut up about god and uses every little thing that happens as a tEaChInG mOmEnT to throw a bible verse out there. Scintillating. c) “One of my favorite things on earth is getting my hair done, like washed and blow-dried and cut”. OK sure, finally a normal thing. d) “And then finishing the night watching movies with my people and playing cards”. e) SHE NEVER TALKED ABOUT JOSH ONCE in her description of a perfect day. LITERALLY NOT ONCE. As an engaged person, wouldn’t your ‘perfect day’ involve something romantic and/or sexy with your fiancé? Some one-on-one time? Literally you will shouldn’t ever be more excited about your relationship than during your engagement/early marriage, and he didn’t even warrant a footnote as part of her imaginary day. Damn, that’s depressing. · Question 7: “How do you know what God is calling you to do with your life when there is so many things you want to do?” a) Aaaaand, just another excuse for another 4 minutes of bible verse machine gun. · Welp, these were the most boring questions I’ve ever seen in a Q&A even among fundies, and clearly self-written. Boring people have boring lives, who would’ve thought. Episode 10: “Stinky Rug to Stellar Rug” (23 minutes) – this one is from this week · She moved into a house with her 3 friends last week at Liberty – because coronavirus isn’t a thing, clearly. · A “Timely and Cherished year” with the girls before getting married – WHO talks like this. I don’t get the ‘fundie vernacular’, and she has one of the worst cases I’ve seen. Just use normal words! Does reading the KJV that much corrupt your vocabulary?? · 3 minutes telling the story about how a rug she took from home smelled like dogs when she unrolled it, so she and her mom got a shampooer and washed it. Later that night when she was out with her mom her roommates called complaining that her rug had stunk up the whole house. And so they put it outside and it got rained on… so then she bought a new rug and it was so much better and cuter! o “Thank you god for giving me a stinky rug so I could find this better one!” · Moral of the story, apparently – calling out people, like her friends called her out on her stanky rug. “Love calls out what is not pleasing to the Lord” – so this is the reason for people to accost people and be verbally anti-LGBT and anti-Choice and just anti-diversity of people or opinion?? If these fundies can rail against ‘cancel culture’ like P&M earlier this week, and then follow it up with ‘people need to be calling out people who are making bad choices,’ what giant hypocrisy that I ABSOLUTELY cannot stand. What about “Worry about your own damn self”. · And now 15 minutes of bible verse machine gun again about ‘iron sharpening iron’ and all the friendship verses we heard in Episode 4. Like, the same verses and preaching. I’ve only listened to 4 episodes and we’ve got repeats… HOW can she be doing one of these every single week. She doesn’t have enough material for 10 episodes shorter than 25 minutes each?? · And a wrap-up of tips and tricks of how to call-out your friends. How ‘loving’ and ‘Christian’ of you. Well there you go – 2 hours of my life I won’t get back. And my Podcast search algorithm is all jacked up. Enjoy!
2020.09.02 21:54 lala22567654Please talk me out of having sex before marriage, can't stop thinking with the wrong brain?
Ok so Im a Christian woman waiting till marriage for yeaaarrssss and my hormones raging and about to be 30. I honestly feel like I can wait any longer. Yes I know a lot of you are going to say look for husband, online dating, ask men out and all that. I know believe me I'm trying. But in the meantime everyday is getting harder waiting... Plus theres this guy who really hot that works by where I live. I developed a crush on him and everytime I see him my mind keeps wondering about sex with him (even tho I'm not 100 sure if he will agree to it). He has shown some interest I texted him a little. I asked him was he single and he said " No I am not single. many women worldwide many children. Jamaica, New York, Alabama, London Mexico". So common sense me says this guy is not good for me. But my hormones are saying just have sex with him one time to get it out if your system no strings attached and this guy is really hot and muscular and probably my last chance getting a guy that hot and young since I'm about to turn 30. Plus I don't know any other christian who waiting till marriage and even had kids out of wedlock and they are all doing just fine even ministers of the gospel now and the Lord is blessing them even tho everyone judges me harshly for even hanging out with a guy platonically and desiring sex even tho Ive actually not had sex. But I don't know Its like maybe my rationale keeps getting thrown out the window when my hormones levels go up. I can't think straight and I need someone to talk some sense into me. Guys give me advice and don't be nice about I need to hear the real deal espacially as a christian. Will my life be ruined if I have sex?
2020.09.01 12:47 GGRAVEYARDDI have no will to live whatsoever outside of staying alive for my daughter.
Ever since I was as young as 3, I have been an extremely sad person. My parents divorced at that age and my mom married a man who went on to abuse the both of us. Both of my parents were addicts, and I was never really given a shot at being normal. Cancer runs in my family, as well as mental illness, 90% of my relatives were dead before I even reached 8. My mother was murdered by my aunt and uncle when I was 11 and I spiraled. I cut my long blonde hair short and dyed it dark, and was obviously a lot more withdrawn, not many people at all knew what was going on and I got bullied a lot for the sudden appearance/personality change. At the same time my mother died, my dad was in rehab and I didn't have him at my birthday party. While he was away I had to stay with my stepmom, who I like but we clash a lot due to the fact she is a strict christian and I was not/am not religious. I have always lived in Alabama, I'm bisexual and people here tend to be very homophobic, I was openly dating a girl from age 10-14, so at that age people are a lot less understanding of things- the 45+ teachers weren't to kind about it either. I got pregnant at 15 and was told if I got an abortion that I would not be allowed to see my baby's father ever again, and my boyfriend made me feel bad for considering one at all. I was bullied to an extent I had to switch to online school, and two months before I was supposed to graduate I dropped out, bot due to having a kid, but my mental health was so bad I couldn't bring myself to do more than the bare minimum to take care of me and my child. I have tried to commit suicide at ages 13 (after my girlfriend cheated on me), 15 (didn't know I was pregnant yet), and 16 (two days after leaving the mental hospital). I am 18 now, my life keeps progressively getting worse and worse- but my daughter loves me so much and I don't want her to lose her mother that she is very close to to a tragic death like I did. However it is extremely exhausting having only one reason to live, and it not even being for myself. Me and my boyfriend fight a lot because he has cheated on me which makes not be as trusting as I should and he doesn't understand my mental issues and why I lash out in anger and sadness the way I do, and why my moods change so quickly. No one talks to me anymore because I can't regulate my emotions at all despite being on multiple different medications. I physically cannot work, I am incapable of talking to people or to even find the will to do anything more than the bare minimum no matter how hard I try. I just want to be happy.
2020.08.27 14:47 trifletrufflesClifford "Clifton" Walker-found murdered in his car on February 29, 1964 in Woodville, Mississippi-Closed Case under the Civil Rights Division Emmett Till Act
On February 29, 1964, in Woodville, Mississippi, 37 year old Clifford “Clifton” Walker was "killed by a close range shotgun blast to the head." Clifton was killed on his way home from a local bar which he visited after his work shift ended at the International Paper Company in Natchez, Mississippi. [Name redacted in the closing memorandum] was the last person to see Clifton alive; the man worked with Clifton and carpooled with him back to Woodville where he was dropped off at his at approximately 11:40 p.m. Clifton's body was was found the following afternoon in his car "which had been heavily damaged by shotgun blasts." Clifton's body was "found" (quotation mark used similarly in the closing memorandum) in his car by Prentiss Mathis who flagged down a local patrolman, R. W. Palmertree. Patrolman Palmertree immediately notified Sheriff Charles T. Netterville of Wilkenson County, Mississippi, and an inquiry into the murder began. After initially processing the crime scene, Sheriff Neterville contacted the Mississippi Highway Patrol for assistance. Patrol investigators traveled to Woodville in February and March of 1964 to talk with witnesses and to review evidence. The last known MHP report from March of 1964 "identifies three prime suspects – Carl Cavin, Prentiss Mathiss and Red Metcalf – in the murder." The FBI, noted in its later investigation, that there is little available evidence linking Carl and Red to the murder. Aside from the fact that Prentiss found Clifton's body, the only other evidence linking Prentiss to the murder comes from investigators noting that Mathiss was “uncooperative and belligerent” throughout his interview with the highway patrol investigators, and that he had “an extreme dislike for Negros.” The FBI became involved in the matter when, on February 29, 1964, they received a report that Clifton had been shot and killed in Mississippi. The FBI monitored the investigation and ultimately closed its case in the winter of 1964. Clifton’s murder remains unsolved. 1964 Mississippi Highway Patrol (MHP) Investigation: MHP began its investigation into Clifton's murder by interviewing Patrolman Palmertree, who was the first law enforcement officer to respond to the crime scene. Patrol Palmertree reported that Prentiss flagged him down at approximately 1 p.m. on February 29, 1964, and told him that there was a “dead man” in a car on Poor House Road, north of Woodville. When Patrolman Palmertree arrived at the scene, he noticed that Clifton's body was slumped to the right of the driver’s seat with his feet under the floor board. Patrolman Palmertree stated that "all of the windows of the vehicle were shot out, and that several shots had been fired into the body,” but could not advise how many." Patrolman Palmertree further noted that shotgun shells and wadding were found in Clifton's vehicle, which "remained in high gear despite the fact that the engine was off, and that the keys were stuck in the dash board compartment lock with the compartment swinging open." Inside the compartment was "a .38 caliber Smith and Wesson four-inch barrel, chrome-plated firearm." MHP next spoke with Sheriff Netterville who surmised Clifton had been dead approximately twelve to fourteen hours when Patrolman Palmertree arrived on scene. Sheriff Netterville also reported that Clifton's wallet with $148.00 in cash was recovered from the scene. At approximately 7:30 p.m. on February 29, 1964, MHP investigators were able to view Clifton's body noting that "it appeared that a full load of buck shot entered just under the left ear appearing to be fired at a very close range.” Another load "appeared to have entered Walker’s chin and mouth on the right side tearing away parts of the mouth, chin and neck." MHP focused its investigation on trying to find a motive for the killings; accordingly, MHP interviewed people who worked with or knew Clifton in an effort to develop leads. Many of Clifton's co-workers reported that although the International Paper Company had recently integrated its facilities, there was no known conflict between Clifton and any white workers. Many of Clifton's co-workers "generally had a favorable opinion of his character and could not provide a motive for the killing." MHP next interviewed [name redacted in the closing memorandum] who was the last known person to see Clifton alive. [Name redacted] advised that he was very close to Clifton, and that "if [Clifton] had trouble with anyone, he would have known about it." [Name redacted] indicated that on the night of Clifton's murder, he rode home with Clifton to the “car pool,” which was approximately one mile north of Poor House Road. The “car pool” refers to "a place where people would drop off their vehicles before carpooling with one another to work." From there, [Name redacted] followed Clifton down Highway 61 until Clifton's vehicle turned onto Poor House Road. [Name redacted] did not know who killed Clifton. As the MHP investigation continued, investigators learned of rumors that Clifton "had been talking to white women, and that some white men took offense to this." It appears that MHP "attempted to substantiate these rumors, but the remnants of their case file show a disjointed investigation that failed to produce enough evidence to charge anyone in the murder." MHP "seemed particularly interested" in learning more about Clifton's interactions with white men and women at Nettles Truck Stop on Highway 61, six miles north of Woodville. One former employee, a white 40-year old woman named Geraldine Vines, reported that in September or October of 1963, Clifton commented to her “I sho does likes you,”; Geraldine reported the comment to Mildred Nettles who was the wife of the owner of the truck stop, Jennings B. Nettles. Jennings told Clifton to “get up and leave and to never darken the door of that place of business [again].” Geraldine also reported that she had heard from Mildred “a few years back” that Clifton had tried to run Mildred into a ditch on Poor House Road. MHP contacted Mildred who advised that in 1956 or 1957, she was taking one of her employees home when Clifton's car almost ran her into a ditch on Poor House Road. Mildred reported that she knew it was Clifton's car vehicle because her employee remarked “there goes that damn smart alec negro Walker.” Immediately afterwards, Mildred drove to the truck stop and told her husband about her encounter with Clifton. Jennings and Mildred drove back to Poor House Road to look for Clifton, but by the time they arrived he was gone. When MHP interviewed Jennings, he said that Clifton was a “good negro with whom he had no complaints." The investigation files at the time noted that while this incident could have provided Jennings with a “motive to harm" Clifton, MHP did not uncover any evidence linking him to Clifton's murder. However, it appears that no efforts were made by MHP to account for Jennings' whereabouts on the night of the murder. MHP further inquired about other alleged “inappropriate interactions" Clifton may have had with white women. Sheriff Netterville notified MHP that he had information that [Name redacted in the closing memorandum] was "overheard on the telephone trying to get Doris Dover to accompany her on a negro date." MHP followed up on this lead by briefly interviewing David Vines and a woman whose name was redacted in the memorandum. David recalled that on the day before his murder, Clifton showed up at Rita Lee Dover’s home where he was invited to come inside. MHP recorded no further information from David, and his relationship to Rita is not specified in the investigative reports. MHP also interviewed Rita and her father noting that they “failed to find that they were connected in anyway,” to Clifton's murder. [Name redacted who was overheard on the telephone] was interviewed, but MHP concluded that she was not connected in any way with the case. The information received by MHP relating to Clifton's "interactions with white women in Wilkenson County was never fully developed and never produced a viable suspect in the murder." The only “suspects identified in MHP’s report were Carl Cavin, Prentiss Mathis and Red Metcalf." The only mention of Carl and Red in the 32 page report from MHP is a single paragraph that states that [name redacted] was with Carl on the night of Clifton's murder at approximately 1 a.m. and “appeared to be extremely nervous and drinking fairly heavily.” [Name redacted] further reported that Carl had been in the company of Red, at around 10:30 p.m. that evening and was seen “within one mile of the murder scene.” Despite listing the three men as suspects, MHP never interviewed Carl or Red, and there was no other information contained in their report linking Carl and Metcalf to the murder. MHP closed its investigation without making any arrests. 1964 FBI Investigation: After learning of Clifton's death, the FBI opened a case to provide limited assistance to the Sheriff’s Office and MHP. The FBI monitored and tracked the information they received from MHP before ultimately closing the case when no "prosecutable suspects were identified." 2009 FBI Investigation In 2009, the FBI initiated a review of the circumstances surrounding Walker’s death, pursuant to the Department of Justice’s “Cold Case” initiative and the “Emmett Till Unsolved Civil Rights Crime Act of 2007,” which charges the Department of Justice to investigate “violations of criminal civil rights statutes . . . result[ing] in death” that “occurred not later than December 31, 1969.” The FBI reviewed the original 1964 FBI case file and conducted research to determine whether any of the “subjects identified by MHP or other relevant individuals were still alive." Prentiss, Red, and Carl were determined to be deceased along with the other witnesses noted in the preceding paragraphs. On September 27, 2010, the FBI contacted [name redacted] who indicated that he had information regarding Clifton's murder. [Name redacted] recalled that he observed G.B. Sproles sawing off the barrel off a shotgun. G.B. had been "flagged earlier in the  investigation as someone who [Clifton] may have had contact with" but not further information was provided. [Name redacted] asked him why he was doing so to which Sproles responded that "he had something to do, and then shooed [Name redacted] away. When [Name redacted] heard about Clifton's murder a few days later, he thought G.B. was probably involved. [Name redacted] later "heard talk between the adults" that Clifton had been killed because "he was going with a white woman." He also heard that the gun used to kill Clifton was thrown off the Mississippi River bridge in Natchez. [Name redacted] further reported that G.B. was “as sorry as the day was long,” but did not elaborate further on this remark. [Name redacted] stated that he would not be surprised if G.B. was involved in the murder. G.B. died in 1996. On February 14, 2013, the FBI located [Name redacted] and interviewed her about Clifton's murder. [Name redacted] was similarly referenced in MHP’s 1964 report as an individual who had information regarding Clifton but no information was gathered as she had stated " I know too much about this mess and I aint gonna get involved.” [Name Redacted] told agents that on the night of Clifton's death she was in Louisiana with her boyfriend and did not learn of the shooting until she arrived back in Centerville, Mississippi the following day. Upon returning, she learned that law enforcement was looking for her because they believed she had information about Clifton's death. [Name redacted] reported that she left Centerville because she did not want to get involved with the investigation even though she had no knowledge of who killed Walker. [Name Redacted] further noted that she was interviewed in Louisiana shortly after Clifton's murder by local investigators. She explained to the investigators that she did not know who killed Clifton. Beginning in the fall of 2010, the FBI was in contact with Ben Greenberg, a freelance journalist who was working on gathering information regarding the Clifton and other civil rights era victims. From the fall of 2010 through the summer of 2011, Ben "repeatedly sought to exchange information he had regarding [Clifton's] murder for access to un-redacted FBI information." Ben "claimed to have information that would be valuable to the FBI’s investigation;" however, he was advised that he would not be able to “trade information" for access to un-redacted FBI files. In July 2011, Mark J. Kappelhoff, of the U.S. Department of Justice, sent a letter to Ben requesting any information that he had related to Clifton's murder. Ben never responded to the request, and in July of 2012, he published an article in the Clarion Ledger detailing his investigative efforts. No additional leads were identified in Ben's article. The Department of Justice closed Clifton's case after noting that that "this matter does not constitute a prosecutable violation of the federal criminal civil rights statutes" as "there are no known surviving eyewitnesses and there is no available physical evidence to review....as such, there is no reasonable possibility that further investigation will lead to a prosecutable case." The Department of Justice also noted that "continued investigation would not lead to a viable prosecution of a living suspect." Ben Greenberg's investigation in theClarion Ledger: The preceding paragraphs relay the information provided in the FBI's closing memorandum. I found Ben's Clarion Ledger article and it noted that Clifton's daughter, Catherine Walker Jones, received a letter from the Justice Department that the case had been closed. However, she was surprised since agents investigating the case had never spoken to anyone in her family. Catherine opined she has been "disappointed in the manner in which promises are made by the Justice Department to families that have not gotten closure for the death of their loved ones....it's like you make it sound real good with the Cold Case Initiative, but there was no substance to it, none whatsoever." She further remarks "no one did any time in jail for killing a human being, a father, a husband, an American citizen, a veteran...you have people going to jail for killing dogs today...and there he was, a human being." In contrast to the FBI's contention that no additional leads were provided in the article, Ben's investigation reveals that a mob ambushed Clifton Earl Walker Sr. on Poor House Road; this was believed to be "the first slaying by Mississippi's homegrown White Knights of the Ku Klux Klan." It appears FBI was aware of the news article but it is unclear if they followed up on the leads noted within. Per Ben's investigation, Clifton was driving home when the mob stopped his car on the dirt road off U.S. 61 near Woodville, Mississippi. The men surrounded Clifton and shot him repeatedly in the face. In the hours that followed, "the 37-year-old World War II veteran bled to death." The International Paper Plant was known as a "hotbed for Ku Klux Klan recruitment." The White Knights of the KKK are believed to have been responsible for at least 10 killings including the 1964 killings of James Chaney, Andrew Goodman and Michael Schwerner. After Clifton's body was found, three of Clifton's brothers-in-laws drove 55 miles south to Baton Rouge to see Ronnie Moore, who was Louisiana field secretary for the Council on Racial Equality. According to FBI documents, the three men talked to Ronnie, and he called and told the bureau that Clifton "had been shot down in Mississippi and that nothing had been done about it by local authorities." On March 1, 1964, FBI agents reported meeting with Ronnie and the three men. FBI Headquarters responded the next day with an order to "contact the Sheriff to ascertain if he is conducting any investigation of this matter and obtain any details available" and to send the bureau copies of any local newspaper coverage of the murder. The FBI opened the case, closed it a few months later, then briefly reopened it before moving on without resolution in December 1964, at which point MPH also closed the investigation. The 2009 FBI investigation reviewed the 1964 files of both the MPH and FBI and determined there were no viable suspects. Accordingly, Clifton's murder remains unsolved. Clifford "Clifton" Walker (1927-1964): Born in 1927, Clifton was the last of nine children. Despite being the youngest, "his siblings respected him." According to his daughter, Catherine, when her father "saw [his siblings] arguing with their wives, he would pull his brothers on the side and tell them you don't talk to your wife that way...he was such a gentleman." His family called him "Man," and the nickname stuck. He met Ruby C. Phipps while walking home from Sunday school and married her two years later. He joined the army during World War II. Catherine and his other daughter Shirley recalled their father made sure "the family never went without" saying "we didn't have to cook on the wood stove...Daddy got a gas stove and a washing machine" remarking "he invested well, and [their mother] maintained their money well." Similarly, Shirley highlighted how her parents worked well "together as a unit...taking care of their children, teaching them what they needed to know to live in this world." In the 1950s, Clifton served in the army again during the Korean War. However, a knee injury sent him back home, and he started working at the nearby International Paper plant about 30 miles north of Woodville in southwest Mississippi. In the days following the funeral, Ruby, "had a breakdown that frightened her children" with Catherine recalling "when Mama didn't recognize her children, I knew we were in trouble." Ruby recovered from the breakdown, but she had to take medication to sleep each night until her death in 1992 at the age of 65. Clifton's son, Cliff Jr., was 10 at the time of the slaying; Catherine opines Cliff Jr. "didn't realize or know Daddy...he was the kind of man a son really should have known." Catherine says she has managed to survive saying "he's the sole reason that I'm alive today because his memory meant more to me than I meant to myself at one period." Overwhelmed with depression at times, she felt "it was just easier to die than live with the hurt and the agony of knowing that someone you loved more than the man you prayed to was gone...and it was a bitter, bitter struggle actually dealing with God because He could have prevented this and He didn't." Nevertheless, she "continues to believe justice is possible" opining "no justice has ever happened in dealing with my father, and if it doesn't happen during my time, I'm afraid it's not ever gonna happen." Links: https://www.justice.gov/crt/case-document/clifford-clifton-walker https://www.clarionledger.com/story/journeytojustice/2014/08/29/kkk-killing-clifton-walker-unpunished/14814923/ I came across the Department of Justice’s cold case initiative while reading an article discussing journalists’ efforts to install a billboard on an Arkansas highway aimed at solving the 1954 lynching of Isadore Banks. The Civil Rights Division of the United States Department of Justice launched a website (linked above) to make information about the department’s investigation of cold cases from the Civil Rights Era more accessible to the public. Over the years, the Department “has assisted in prosecuting Edgar Ray Killen in 2005, making him the eighth defendant convicted for the 1964 murders of three civil rights workers in Philadelphia, Mississippi (the "Mississippi Burning" case); secured life sentences in 2003 against the perpetrators of the 1963 Sixteenth Street Baptist Church bombing in Birmingham, Alabama; and secured a federal conviction and life sentence of James Ford Seale for the kidnapping and murder of two teenagers in Franklin County, Mississippi in 1964.” Congress recognized the importance of these federal efforts when it enacted the Emmett Till Unsolved Civil Rights Crime Act in 2008. Unfortunately, in many cases “legal and evidentiary barriers prevent the Department from moving forward with prosecution." In each case that is not prosecutable, the Department of Justice wrote a closing memo explaining the investigative steps taken and the basis for their conclusion. To date, the Department of Justice has uploaded 115 closing memos. I hope to be able to post on all of the closed cases as I share in the belief with the Department of Justice that “these stories should be told [as] there is value in a public reckoning with the history of racial violence and the complicity of government officials.” Other posts from the Department of Justice's Cold Case Initiative:
Isadore Banks-unsolved murder in Marion, Arkansas-June 1954
2020.08.21 15:57 trifletrufflesSilas Caston-killed on March 1, 1964 by a Hinds County Sheriff’s Office Deputy in Jackson, Mississippi-Closed Case Under the Civil Rights Division Emmett Till Act
On March 1, 1964, Silas Caston, then 19 years old, was shot and killed by Hinds County Sheriff’s Office Deputy Herbert Hoover Sullivan in Jackson, Mississippi. According to a contemporary news article in the Jackson Clarion Ledger, the shooting occurred when Hinds County Sheriff's Office deputies responded to a report of shots fired. The deputies saw two men fleeing the scene. Deputy Sullivan chased the victim into a café where, according to an unnamed source in the news article, Silas turned “as if to attack the deputy.” At that point, Deputy Sullivan, who “had no way of knowing that Silas was unarmed, shot him in the stomach." Silas died later that night at University Hospital in Jackson. In the fall of 2008, the FBI initiated a review of the circumstances surrounding Silas's death pursuant to the Department of Justice’s Cold Case initiative and the Emmett Till Unsolved Civil Rights Crime Act of 2007. The FBI interviewed the victim’s [relationship redacted in the memorandum]. In the course of its investigation, the FBI also contacted "various Mississippi law enforcement and government officials' conducted searches of the records of the Southern Poverty Law Center (SPLC), the Mississippi Department of Archives and History (MDAH), the University of Southern Mississippi library, and the internet for relevant references and media articles; sent letters to both the SPLC and the NAACP requesting information; and solicited information about the case via a press release that was published in local newspapers and broadcast on local television and radio stations." The FBI located Silas's death certificate which stated he died on March 1, 1964, as a result of “intractable shock” caused by a “massive acute hemorrhage” due to a gunshot wound to the abdomen. The FBI contacted officials at the Hinds County Sheriff's Office, the Mississippi Attorney General's Office, and the Mississippi Department of Public Safety, but none of those agencies had or maintained any records relevant to Silas's death. In December 2009, the FBI interviewed [name redacted in the closing memorandum], Silas's [relationship redacted in closing memorandum]. [Name redacted] stated that Silas was in a club with two other teenagers “making some noise.” When officers responded to a call from the club’s owner, the two others fled while Silas turned around and raised his hands in surrender and was shot. [Name redacted] did not recall the names of the two other teenagers. According to a March 1964 memorandum from the Mississippi State Sovereignty Commission, Silas's mother gave permission to the NAACP and the Congress for Racial Equality (CORE) to file suit against Deputy Sullivan and the Hinds County Sheriff's Office in the amount of $100,000. The FBI's investigation did not uncover any evidence indicating that the suit was ever filed. However, the Southern Poverty Law Center noted that CORE and NAACP did file a a civil suit but the result of that suit is unknown. Deputy Sullivan died on April 6, 1986. The Department of Justice closed Silas's case after noting that that "this matter does not constitute a prosecutable violation of the federal criminal civil rights statutes" as Deputy Sullivan is deceased; therefore, "matter will not be forwarded to the state for prosecutive review." Even if Deputy Sullivan were alive, prior to 1994, federal criminal civil rights violations were not capital offenses so there was a 5-year statute of limitations. In 1994, some of these civil rights statutes were amended to provide the death penalty for violations resulting in death thus eliminating the statute of limitations. However, the Ex Post Facto Clause of the Constitution prohibits the retroactive application of the 1994 amendment. While the Civil Rights Division has used “non-civil rights statutes to overcome the statute of limitations challenge in certain cases, such as those occurring on federal land and kidnapping resulting in death, the facts of the present do not lend themselves to federal prosecution under other federal statutes.” Silas's name is identified in a display which honors 74 people at the Civil Rights Memorial Center in Montgomery, Alabama as one of the "The Forgotten." The 74 names were “not inscribed on the Memorial because there was insufficient information about their deaths at the time the Memorial was created in 1989." Links: https://www.justice.gov/crt/case-document/silas-caston https://www.wlbt.com/story/6151051/southern-poverty-law-centers-list-of-the-forgotten/ I came across the Department of Justice’s cold case initiative while reading an article discussing journalists’ efforts to install a billboard on an Arkansas highway aimed at solving the 1954 lynching of Isadore Banks. The Civil Rights Division of the United States Department of Justice launched a website (linked above) to make information about the department’s investigation of cold cases from the Civil Rights Era more accessible to the public. Over the years, the Department “has assisted in prosecuting Edgar Ray Killen in 2005, making him the eighth defendant convicted for the 1964 murders of three civil rights workers in Philadelphia, Mississippi (the "Mississippi Burning" case); secured life sentences in 2003 against the perpetrators of the 1963 Sixteenth Street Baptist Church bombing in Birmingham, Alabama; and secured a federal conviction and life sentence of James Ford Seale for the kidnapping and murder of two teenagers in Franklin County, Mississippi in 1964.” Congress recognized the importance of these federal efforts when it enacted the Emmett Till Unsolved Civil Rights Crime Act in 2008. Unfortunately, in many cases “legal and evidentiary barriers prevent the Department from moving forward with prosecution." In each case that is not prosecutable, the Department of Justice wrote a closing memo explaining the investigative steps taken and the basis for their conclusion. To date, the Department of Justice has uploaded 115 closing memos. I hope to be able to post on all of the closed cases as I share in the belief with the Department of Justice that “these stories should be told [as] there is value in a public reckoning with the history of racial violence and the complicity of government officials.” Other posts from the Department of Justice's Cold Case Initiative:
Isadore Banks-unsolved murder in Marion, Arkansas-June 1954
2020.08.21 00:15 passwordisguestCurrent Status of Fall FCS Football - Updated as Schedules Develop
As of 9/21, 2:45pm CDT 56 FCS games with dates (40 left to play), including 15 FCS vs FCS matchups (14 left). A total of 17 FCS teams with at least one game. FCS Teams are 1-16 overall; 1-1 in FCS play, 0-15 in FBS play, 0-0 in D2 play, 0-0 in NAIA play. Teams playing:
Abilene Christian Abilene Christian 0-1 (8) - 9/19 @UTEP (L 13-17), 10/3 @Army, 10/17 West Texas A&M, 10/24 @Stephen F. Austin, 10/31 @Mercer, 11/7 Angelo State, 11/14 Arizona Christian, 11/21 @Virginia
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2020.08.17 16:29 deathreaper1129How i got here warning pretty dang long
TLDR: a record of the things i delt with with my parents the highlights and lowlights Ok for starters im on mobile so sorry for formatting i felt ive needed to do this for a long time just never had somewhere to put it but than i found this subreddit and realized how perfect it is for my story keep in mind my earliest memories arent the most accurate it was over 10+ years ago and i am by no means gonna go over everything i remeber just things that provide context to future memories without further ado heres the story of how ive gotten this far Ok so this starts with my first memories most of which have to do with my dad who is ex ranger with a lot of mental issues kinda like me at present im just not as bad my symptoms are very managable with medication and councelling so for context i was probably about 4-5 yo (and for future potential context im male idk if it will be relevent later im kinda making this up as i go) at the time just a kid my dad was an alcoholic and still has bouts of alcoholism now i dont know if he was drunk then i didnt even know what drunk was then what i do know is one of my first memories is being hit in the legs repeatedly with drumsticks i can still remember the intense pain to this day when it hit the bones on the front bottom segment of my legs shooting fire like pain seared through them i also have another memory of being held against a wall and slapped i cant remember much about this i was young and my memory on it is extremely fuzzy my mom( no shes not the nice one she becomes the main antagonist in my teenage years but in my childhood i was a complete mamas boy) at the time worked most days and my dad would watch me on his days off the rest of the time one of my aunts or my grandma would watch me while both my parents were at work i can remember being so friggin happy when i found out that my nana or one of my aunts would be watching me because i was serously scared of my dad for obvious reasons a later memory i have while i didnt understand it at the time was of my dad passed out praying to the toilet gods because hed gotten hammered i just thought hed fallen asleep and the bathroom light was on so i turned it off he wasnt a winner of a parent as you can see which leads to my next memory me and my mom coming home to our new apartment with my little sister who i believe at that point had been born about a year prior and was able to crawl was passed out on the floor with an overflowing diaper and my dad was passed out chest down on the bed this led to an arguement between my mom and dad that got extremely loud between the shouting and my little sis crying because of the noise this led to a period of a few years i think 2 or 3 where my parents would seperate without getting divorced repeatedly i was often happier in these periods of seperation and when my dad was gone i felt like a weight was off my chest i didnt have to worry about his drunkeness a concept i now understood i didnt need to worry about his volitile temper and when he would come back the stress would come straight back hed always start out nice but hed always eventually turn back into that asshole ive known most of my life it was a lot for a little 10yo boy and i think between that and the abuse the beginnings of my mental problems were forming during this time my second little sister was born when he was back in my moms good graces skip foreward one year and eventually my mom finally divorced my dad at the time i thought this would be a good thing my dad would be gone and i wouldnt need to worry or fear getting hit by him in a drunken stupor or being yelled at cussed and slurred to tears id be with what i though of as my loving mother but little known to me she would soon be going off the religious deep end going deeper and deeper in as the years went by my sisters grew up as christians as did i we'd all been in the faith since we were born and knew no different we moved churches a few times and eventually settled on a messianic hebrew church basically christianity but focusing on direct hebrew translation and prodominantly focusing on the old testement only leaning on new testament teachings where it complemented old testament "torah" doctrine this is where my mother started to veer off the rails she would often harshly chastize me for the smallest things any minor sin against so called god was an excuse to yell and berate me i went into middle school where i was made fun of and bullied i would continuously alert the staff of what was going on and nothing changed i was a pretty average student never great at math but i exelled in subjects like english and science i always had a thirst for knowledge and in truth id finished all the books on my bookshelf by the time i was about 11 and it was around this time i became more aware of what the world outside school and my house was like as id been brought up very sheltered eventually i came to the realization that the religion made no sense when compared to what we know about the world based on scientific evidence i continued to fake believing a year passed and my mom dated a child of a man we will call him M so M like my dad had a drug problem he smoked weed incessantly (imma just add i have no problem with smoking weed i do so myself but moderation is principle in everything) all day every day and before he had met my mom he was surfing couches while working at a temp agency for crappy wage despite these glaring red flags she stayed with him even when we were evicted from our apartment homeless living out of a cramped jeep grand cherokee (this lasted for months until we eventually got a temporary housing unit from a nonprofit and lived there for a bit) my mother had constantly told me since i had known what sex even was (i kinda figured it out when i was younger knew how it worked biologically speaking eg. Sperm fertilizes egg makes offspring it was the mechanics of how the sperm got there that i hadnt figured out yet than puberty slammed me like a truck and i figured it out) that it was a sin to have children out of wedlock of course her the eternal hypocrite she was and still is had 2 kids with this loser and to this day i still will never understand what she saw in that guy dont get me wrong i love my little brothers and it saddens me that i havent seen them in years as i dont want to associate with my mother but we'll get to that bit later eventually they stopped dating and my mother was single once again at this time we were living in a crappy dusty musty mobile home not the glampimg kind the literal houses you can attach to a big trailer and move or rather you would be able to if this place didnt look like it was gonna turn to dust at any second i was about 13 then and after a few too many years of going to church as to not cause friction with my mother but still not believing it and having shared custody with my dad which at first was just on weekends but eventually was a 50/50 split 2 weeks at my dads 2 weeks at my moms being at my dads which i pretty much preferred not for my dad i was often pretty cold toward him but we got along ok and once he got clean he was much less of an asshole the person that made the place worth being in was my stepmom shes italian and makes wonderful food and i feel it was because of her and her talking to me about the world and how to be assertive and stand up for myself and not to take shit from other people between these talks and my own beliefs at the time i finally decided to tell my mom that i didnt want to go to church on saturday she told me to get up and quickly tore off my blankets i told her no that i didnt believe it anymore at whichpoint she decided to grab me and try to drag me out of bed unsucessfully as i hung onto my bed for dear life (my bed was just a twin mattress on the floor it had those rings on the side your supposed to use to help move it but quick thinking found another use for them) eventually she gave up the attempt dropping me painfully on the ground near my bed and went out of the room i thought it was over i thought id won and as i lay back down on my bed waiting for her to leave she came back promptly with a water bottle i didnt know this at the time but shed also called my auntie N who was at this time on the way over (she lived right down the road) she proceeded to spray me with water like a misbehaving puppy occasionally trying to drag me away over and over luckily for me my aunt finally came and in what felt like a few minutes but couldve been longer time us a weird thing it flies when your adrenaline is firing on all cylinders probably the reason that being dropped repeatedly didnt hurt much til a bit later and because she had heard the commotion she came in and asked my mom fairly loudly what she was doing by this time i had asumed the form of a human pill bug trying to cower very close to the wall while whimpering in an attempt not to cry i didnt expect this from my mother shed always done her best even if she made very bad decitions and while i knew she would be mad i wouldve never thought shed have gone to the extreme of covering my half naked body in cold water while picking me up trying to pry me off the the bed and than dropping me multiple times she explained that i didnt want to go to church so she thought this "punishment" was what i deserved my aunt told her to leave me alone and basically explained in a calm voice with terse harsh undertones that whether i go to church or not should be my own choice and my mom knowing that continuing would lead to her having a worse reputation than she already had in the family (she was the first born and also a bit of a black sheep because of aformentioned bad choices apparently runs in the family as both my dad and i are the first borns of our respective families and also both black sheep) so after this things went back to normal living in our shitty house in the middle of bum fuck nowhere after that extreme reaction to my lack of belief and not wanting to go to church i cant for the life of me tell you why but when it came time for church id finally be left be and id have the house to myself this was a real win for me because between my mom my 4 siblings and the friggin paper thin walls there was no silence to be had when her my sisters and my brothers were home saturdays when i was with her quickly became a respite outside of junior high(which had its own stresses none of which as hard as the constant screeching of my little brother N) which i was attending at the time got into the wrong crowd started drinking every saturday when i was home alone eventually starting to smoke weed at 14 the alcohol id steal and the weed id buy with money id get for working at my neighbor S's place S was a stand up guy he in many ways was a father figure to me he smoked weed like a chimney he often drank but he always stayed level headed and working with him was yet another escape for me i learned a great many things from him from building fences to basic house repair and as time passed i started getting worse and worse i was in a deep depression that felt like an inescapable pit at the worst times i felt no emotion but pure unbridled sadness or just straight up emptiness i asked my mom if i could get some help either councelling or medication but of course she (at this point having become anti-vax and a flat earther and a serous conspiracy nut who didnt believe doctors were genuinely there to help and thought medication was toxic and horrible for you and yes some are for sure but you have to weigh the risks against the rewards) played down my pleas telling me things like "you make your own happiness" and "you need to learn to be content with where you are" so i carried on self harming and abusing weed and alcohol to get some slanted facsimile of happiness and to continue surviving not living just surviving at 15 i tried to kill myself with tylonol it was the worst pain id ever experienced and have experienced im like 90% sure i puked out all my internal organs and while this is all very hazy i was told later i was found passed out on the floor was taken to a hospital my stomach was pumped and had to stay in the hospital for 48 hours i was given referrals to counselling which were quickly confiscated by my mother if i had known at the time that i could get my own counselling using state insurance (i live in the us in a state that allows minors over 14 to seek out mental health care with or without parental consent this my mom lied to me about and i didnt really have the means to fact check nor the motivation i had one foot in the grave and had seroiusly lost hope that id ever get help) my dad and stepmom didnt know what happened i was too scared to tell them and my mom didnt tell them because im pretty sure she was scared that theyd bring her to court over it i didnt want to tell them because my dad is about as emotionally supportive as a brick to the face and my stepmom the one i trusted the most in my life i felt like id dissapoint by telling her in hindsight it was so stupid if me to think like that but hey i was in a bad place and for a few years up to this time as well as doing drugs and drinking on the DL id been dealing with emerging gay thoughts but what was confusing to me was that it wasnt just boys it was girls too and i had absolutely no clue what i was (like i said i was very sheltered i knew what it was to be gay i knew what lesbians were but my mom tried her best to sensor everything i saw luckily for me i was able to look it up on my first phone my stepmom got me as a birthday present) so eventually found out that im bi which was unsettling for me and it just stressed me the crap out because of how homophobic i knew my mom is and even though i didnt believe in it between the religious teachings in my younger teen years how id seen people like me treated on the news and my moms general attitude toward the lgbt+ community i was worried so like a lot of other things i kept it hidden (this was a few months after i had and lost my first girlfriend much to the dismay of my mother who told me i was too young to date we dated for about 5-6 months and than we broke up a few months into sophomore year and as anyone whose had a first love knows the first is always the hardest the breakup was mostly my fault yeah she had some issues too but i just didnt want her to have to put up with my BS and in hindsight i shouldve been more communicative and told her what was going on and let her decide whether she wanted to continue the relationship but the past is the past and i live for now) as the guilt shame and secrets that i kept to myself started accumulating i kept using drugs to cut the pain id steal bottles if alcohol for quick cash because as a 15 yo soon to be 16 i couldnt get an honest job i used the profits from my theft (which i became quite good at) on various different drugs at this time id stopped drinking i no longer enjoyed it anymore but i smoked plenty of weed by myself and with my so called "friends" most if not all of which would sell me out if it meant theyd be off the hook they were users and were there for the drugs not to make friends in that time frame i experemented with lean, adderall,shrooms,xanax,and even at one point aquired a bottle of oxy and took pill after pill after pill in an attempt to for once feel ok the relief was alas temporary and eventually my mom found out about my drug use finding my weed stash and promptly telling the school who made me go to the school drugs and alcohol counseller while at the time i thought this would suck i came to meet one of my favorate school employees in my highschool career Mrs.B she was a kindly older woman and while we didnt see eye to eye on drug related issues she was trustworthy and i was finally very slowly able to get the secrets id been holding off my chest i told her a little about how my life had been so far and i told her about how i wanted mental health help and she explained that i could get it myself( i never took advantage of it because i didnt have the ability to get to the closest place that took my insurance the pain of not having a car) i eventually got what i thought to be my worst secret at the time i was so nervous then ik she wouldnt judge but before then it was just a concept in my head it was hard to make it into words but i eventually came out to the first person ever i felt liberated but still a bit guilty eventually i got up the courage to tell my real friends (the ones i actually cared about) and they were kind and didnt judge some even said that theyd had inklings that i was at least part of the lgbtq+ comunity at the very least (cant for the life of me figure out how they knew tbh im very straight presenting then and now) but although i felt a bit better i continued using drugs and one day my dad found alcohol id stolen and was going to sell and lets just say shit heated up very quickly i was basically interogated from when he found it about 8pm until after 1 in the morning they asked me why id been using drugs why i had the alcohol eventually between his and my stepmoms prying i aquiessed i basically told them that id been having problems with mental health and had been self medicating i also came out to them too my dad was weirded out (hes from north carolina so ge was raised as a christian in a very religious area and at the time was in his late 40s so this blew his mind) my stepmom was cool with it she told me there was nothing to be afraid or ashamed of(her mom was a hair dresser so she interacted with gay men from a very young age) and that made me feel much better i begged them not to tell my my mom they agreed on the condition that id not do any more drugs 2 weeks or less later i was back at my moms sitting in my room trying to block the world out looking forward to my next visit to my dads because everything had seemed great maybe even better than before when i left (couldve just been the feeling of finally opening up after keeping it inside for so friggin long i felt happy that my stepmom had accepted me) than my mom called me and sat me down on the couch she said "your dad told me that you told him and jody that your gay" at which point i corrected her that im bi not gay and explained the difference i was mad that my dad outed me i wanted to do it on my own in my own time but from how it was going i was hopeful that it would turn out ok however i was very wrong what she told me after this i will never forget "i love you but i will never accept this" i went back to my room with a heavy heart that day my mom could be downright mean at times but i still cared about her opinion so needless to say i went nosediving back into depression started sneaking out at night often getting into trouble i would walk around meet some of the homeless that i knew smoked weed did drugs (never anything super serious at least nothing that stuck) and eventually my dad caught me and told me to stop than when i didnt he felt that it would teach me a lesson by pushing me into our garage and beating the shit out of it all happened in about 30 seconds and i think he only stopped because jody told him to after i left i decided i didnt want to come back i hated my moms but it had to be better than this so in contempt of court i finished sophomore year staying at my moms full time still living without any mental health help (now that i think about it i had serous depression and anxiety issues since i was 13 til i was 17 4 years im surprised i survived) my mental health often fluctuated sometimes better sometimes worse got my first serous job and spent as much time as i could working and when i wasnt working id wake up as early as 4 in the morning and walk 3 miles to the nearest bus station taking a bus to a nearby train station to get on a train that would get me 2 counties away in 45 mins to an hour the first time and nearly every time i did this the cops were called on me for being a runaway i was never caught by them though for reasons already explained(a combination of being out of the county the police were called in and a bit of proticol i learned later that basically states that the police wont start looking until 48 hours after a report and in the end its just a misdemeanor if your parents even press charges) as well as the fact that id go to a different town every day walking around like a 16 yo homeless bum (i was doing school it was online id bring my laptop and finish my daily work either on the train or in a cafe somewhere in this time i tried to commit suicide again i got ahold of my moms shotgun loaded it and locked myself in the bathroom i couldnt get up the courage to actually do it id squeeze the trigger until i knew it was about to fire and than lost my nerve repeated this a few times every time unable to do it i felt so defeated and very much hopeless i was angry that i couldnt do it i fell into a heap on the floor and just cried for what felt like hours putting down the gun as my mom banged on the door and eventually opened it there was no comfort there were no questions asked she made no attempt to help instead she screamed at me telling me about how the bible says that taking ones own life is a sin i was too out of it to do anything i spent the rest of that day just laying in a ball on my bed occasionally breaking into crying fits again there was no pity i had no help as per usual i felt like a failure i couldbt even kill myself right i was alone eventually my mom met another guy were gonna call him garden gnome because he looks like a garden gnome he would start arguements for no reason yell and get angry with very little provocation and didnt like anyone undermining his authority (he was one of those guys that never learned that respect is a 2 way street not unlike my dad) at this point id grown some balls and this tub of lard with a beard from the great incest state of alabama didnt scare me( at this point in my life i didnt care what happened to me i could take the pain of blows and just laugh them off and i honestly wished someone would kill me because i couldnt do it myself i would engage in risky activity like climbing high buildings and by high i mean high high enough that a slip wouldve made me a flesh pancake and honestly i hoped if i did it enough id fuck up at some point and finally be at peace hilariously by being in pieces everywhere i went i instantly would make mental notes of everything i could kill myself with) i remember how much fun it was to get him all riled up i found it hilarious a small bit of levity in an otherwise horrible place i enjoyed how much he overeacted i enjoyed how dumb he acted when he got angry and would get right up in his face and take verbal jabs at him whenever he momentarily stopped yelling to take a breath i wouldnt have been surprised if people down the road could hear the yelling and i carried on living and putting up with this shit pile of a human being fast forward a few months it was night and my mom came to get me out of my room telling me that we were going to get me mental health help it was close to my 17th birthday little did i know id spend it stuck in a mental ward (when i got in the car i didnt know where i was going at all all i knew was that i was finally getting the help id wanted for years) eventually we show up at a hospital and we end up sitting for hours waiting to be admitted i was ushered into a room and was just happy that i was seemingly one step closer to the help i needed so me garden gnome and mom were in a very cramped room with only one window on the door made of re-enforced glass than garden gnome decided to add to the discomfort by starting an arguement bringing up info that A: he had gotten by snooping into my personal life via my social media and B: he knew would piss me off and i dont know whether it was how tired i was or the anxiousness from being in the room( im claustraphobic a room with no windows sends my anxiety into maximum overdrive) it probably was a bit of both but the result was me going off on both of them telling them to get out they refused i yelled to them to get out one more time when i noticed a crack in the door moving as quick as my underslept tired ass could take me i put my hand in the crack and pulled the door open there was male nurse right outside the door who in a very thick african accent told me to get back in the room at this point my adrenaline is surging and he is making an attempt to block me idk how i did it ive always been pretty agile but ive never played football in my life but i juked this nurse out and yelled for the head nurse the head nurse walks over and asks whats going on im a bit out of breath and i am pissed but i try my best to in the most polite way possible tell her that she needs to get garden gnome and my mom out of the room and than i will go back in (kinda easy to see how much i hated garden gnome and my mom at this point that id rather be half parinoid in a cramped windowless room than be around them) after theyve gone down the hall i walk back into the room and my nerves are back on instantly after the door is closed i sat down a chair in the room constantly figeting until i became so tired that i passed out i woke up laying down on the observation table the big adjustable seat thing thats in the middle of most appointment rooms at nearly every medical center like ever i didnt know how i got there i now assume someone moved me while i was sleeping and i woke up to a lady in a business looking type outfit and shes talking to me about how i got here and than lays the news on me that because of last night my mom decided it would be a good idea to put me in in patient care me being a minor i got absolutely no choice in the matter(it was either agree to it and go willingly or reject care and be made to go because my mom had spun the story like i was a harm to others when in reality id only ever harmed myself and yes i made threats that nigjt but i didnt mean them i told them to "leave the room or id kill them" (this was an empty threat i hated them but not enough to kill them as my actions after that threat showed id rather have run away and disengaged than kill anyone) i talk to the lady a bit more hoping i can get out of it but nope im stuck later a nurse comes into the room and i ask her if she can open the sliding metal doors that make up the walls of the room amd she abliged i instantly felt a million times better i ate my first crappy breakfast and was shortly after that transferred to the ward (this was during the period during which i was doing online courses and i had to catch up on a week and a half of school when i got out it sucked) not a lot happened in the ward the days were preplanned so in my memory they kinda blend together but heres the highlights and some of the downsides the food sucked being a hospital the air was kept constantly arid and caused me nosebleeds twice i couldnt shave or cut my hair (for obvious reasons) so i looked homeless by the time i got back oh and the worst thing is i was stuck in that horrible place for my 17th birthday in order to stay sane well more sane and in good shape i did calesthenics every morning by the time i got out i looked a good bit healthier i tried a few different meds spoiler they didnt help much and it would be a few more months before i got meds that really helped but it was a start i also got to be around a lot of other people with simular situations as well as my stepmom showing up out of the blue the eventual key to my exodus i also met J he was a very attractive guy he had red hair and these piercing green eyes and when he came in i think about half way through my stay there i was the first person he talked to so eventually as we talk a bit more it becomes apparent that we kinda like eachother (for those of you saying bad idea you are correct probably the worst relationship ive had but i was so starved for affection that i flew by the red flags and didnt even reverse for a second look) eventually i got out at that point i wished i could stay anything even the ward was better than that house life continued taking it day by day ( this was made slightly better by talking to J and my friend at the time and eventual girlfriend R) until eventually my dad and stepmom reached out to me i was supposed to only stay a day but i stayed for 2 weeks and it continued like this for 6 weeks eventually i coerced my aunt to advocate for me living at my dads i had serious doubts she would pull it off but she did i was still cold toward him even more so now the memories of the last time i was here were clear in my brain i understand why he did what he did but it wasnt right time passed and i did my last year of highschool not much happened i was legitimately trying to make an effort to do well this year and in first semester i didnt bomb but my grades were pretty maybe slightly above average by some metrics i had a few classes i did very well in while others like honors chem took my full attention and forced me to work extremely hard for even a C (while i had the skills to do well i never found much motivation in school it was a concerted effort for me to do as well as i did) during second semester covid hit and we started doing school from home i did my best but there was some family drama and mental stuff that kinda screwed it up but i still manage to pass (by the skin of my teeth) and get my diploma a few weeks later my stepmom divorced my dad which secretly i was happy about he kinda made me uneasy and now i live here pay rent have a job and a girlfriend and im doing my best to make it im going to be an RN ive always loved the medical field an aptitude for the profession runs in my family my great aunt my mom my auntie N my grandpa and my grandma were all nurses and im just navigating the covid struggle like everyone else nowadays and trying to get into job corps to get my CNA for free than i have money my grandparents saved for college which should be enough to do my prereques and get my LPN and RN with minimal if any student debt (great to have rich extended family and by chance be the oldest grandchild anyway thats my story sooo yeah Thanks if you read this all the way i couldnt sleep and as i said before its something ive been wanting to do i wanted to have a refrence of what ive been through just in case i get down on myself and forget what i persevered through to get here i appoligize for rambling and misspells i was like half awake while writing it Edit: ran through it all corrected grammar and most if not all spelling mistakes didnt feel like wasting my remaining brain power for punctuation outside of quotes and im pretty sure few will read it anyway cept my friend D
2020.08.13 16:39 gpngcgpngc's Half-PPR Top 10 Rankings
Hello everyone. Late last year I made weekly rankings on fantasyfootball and received a lot of positive feedback. Since that time I started writing about the NFL Draft on RotoBaller. Here are my half-PPR Top 10 Rankings. All comments and discussion welcome. ..................... I’m considering David Johnson at six. Not the sixth round, but at sixth overall. I’m hoping to land Devonta Freeman or Derrick Henry in the third round, but the decision is a tough one if both are on the board. For quarterback, I’m either going Aaron Rodgers in the seventh round or waiting until the tenth to grab Lamar Jackson. Do I sound crazy? Out of touch? Of course. But in the summer of 2019, these were common takes. Imagine someone drafted Lamar Jackson in the third round last year? Or Derrick Henry in the first? Or Dalvin Cook in the top four? They’d have been ridiculed. Chalk rankings and ADP are not accurate predictors of fantasy production. Players who are being drafted outside the top 20 at their position will finish within the top 10. Players drafted in the first two rounds will *gasp* bust. The actual season never actually happens as the expert rankings tell you it would. The purpose of my rankings is to accurately predict that chaos. The ultimate goal here is to get every single ranking correct, but more realistically, nail some that differ from the consensus. Hopefully, they’ll help you uncover this year's Lamar Jackson. These rankings are based on half-PPR scoring. Projections are prorated for 16 games, but injury risks in terms of possible missed games factor into the rankings. Upside and floor also factor in, which may explain why a player ranked lower may have better projections than a player ranked higher. Stay tuned in the coming days for rankings 11-20, followed by full QB, RB, WR, and TE rankings.
Christian McCaffrey is coming off one of the best fantasy seasons of all time but his situation has changed. He has a new head coach in Matt Rhule, a new offensive coordinator in Joe Brady, and a new quarterback in Teddy Bridgewater. Even though regression is expected, these changes do not make his situation worse. Bridgewater is an upgrade over Kyle Allen and Joe Brady is a stud young coach who just dominated the college ranks. His philosophy about using running backs as receiving weapons meshes well with McCaffrey’s skillset. McCaffrey had a 24% target share in the past two seasons. While the addition of Robby Anderson could drop that number a bit, his new QB’s propensity for short passes should keep his share over 22%. The skill that sets McCaffrey apart from all other backs is not his receiving prowess - but his durability. He handled over 700 touches at Stanford and has played every game in his three NFL seasons. Every player has some level of injury risk, but McCaffrey has proven to be more durable than most. Projections: 287 rushes, 1320 yds, 92 rec, 737 yds, 13 TD 2 Saquon Barkley- RB, Giants There is a strong case to be made for Saquon Barkley as RB1. He is more freakishly athletic than McCaffrey and averaged 2.8 yards after contact compared to McCaffrey’s 1.8 last season. The Giants used two premium picks on offensive linemen, including fourth overall, and expect growth from Will Hernandez. Daniel Jones is coming off a rookie year in which he proved to be a fantasy-friendly player. New Giants offensive coordinator Jason Garrett hasn’t called plays in a while but has had success feeding his RB1 as a head coach. I expect Barkley to be fed. There is league MVP upside here. Projections: 298 rushes, 1482 yds, 69 rec, 554 yds, 13 TD 3 Ezekiel Elliot - RB, Cowboys I hate chalk rankings. They are boring and regurgitate the same things over and over. The fact that my Top 3 is chalk is frustrating, but that’s what my projections spit out. Zeke is going to be the top weapon on a high-powered offense with PFF’s third-ranked offensive line. I actually do not love his ceiling. I think he is a terrific bet to finish anywhere from RB3 to RB7, but has a fairly low chance to be the RB1 or RB2. Zeke is a year older with a huge contract while impressive second-year backup Tony Pollard is still on his rookie deal and has earned more than the 20% rushing share he had last season. Dak Prescott is also a rushing threat and the Cowboys have one of the best receiver groups in the NFL. Locked in as the RB3 in most formats, there’s no reason to get cute here. His floor when healthy is too high. And as a bonus, he’s already had COVID-19! Projections: 280 rushes, 1242 yds, 57 rec, 485 yds, 14 TD 4 Dalvin Cook - RB, Vikings A year ago, I compared 2019 Dalvin Cook to 2014 Demarco Murray. That proved to be an apt comparison, as Cook broke out thanks in large part due to the addition of Gary Kubiak to the Vikings coaching staff. Unfortunately, untimely injury issues hurt his fantasy owners. Fantasy players have trust issues with him as a result, which is impacting his ADP. Cook was rumored to hold out but instead reported to camp. He is locked in as the featured player on a solid team with a huge role in the passing game. Cook has been an elite touchdown scorer and backfield receiving option dating back to his days dominating the ACC at Florida State. Even with expected slight regression in YPC, TD rate, and target share, Cook projects to continue his efficient ways whenever on the field. The only drawback with Cook as a fantasy asset is his injury risk, having missed 19 of 48 NFL games. It has always been my philosophy to draft currently healthy players based on talent and ignore past injuries unless there is a scientific reason to doubt their chances of staying on the field. Cook has yet to play a full 16-game season, but two years removed from a torn ACL, he’s worth the perceived risk. I would rather have a player miss games on my bench than fail to produce in my lineup. I have the stomach to handle injury risk players because I have confidence in my ability to fill my lineup with good players if they miss time. What hurts my soul is a poor performer IN my lineup. Projections: 259 rushes, 1,140 yds, 62 rec, 511 yds, 13 TD 5 Alvin Kamara- RB, Saints Slowed by nagging injuries, Alvin Kamara had a relatively disappointing 2019 season, finishing as RB8 after widely being drafted in the top three. He is due for some serious positive TD regression after hitting paydirt just 6 times in 2019. He scored 18 and 13 in his first two seasons. It was evident on film that Kamara was not as explosive in 2019 as he was the two years prior, but that can be blamed on the nagging injuries. Kamara himself said he played the season “on one leg” and at just 75%. The only changes in his situation are the additions of Emmanuel Sanders and Ty Montgomery, who hasn’t been relevant in years. The floor here is so high, predicting injury, which is a fool's errand, is the only reason to pass on Kamara near his ADP. Projections: 199 rushes, 895 yds, 87 rec, 688 yds, 12 TD 6 Joe Mixon- RB, Bengals Joe Mixon finished as the RB6 in the second half of last season. His lack of production in the first half can be explained by a new offense, terrible offensive line, and a curious lack of action in the passing game. His 8% target share dropped from his 2018 target share of 12%, and because Giovanni Bernard’s did as well, Zac Taylor’s offense clearly did not emphasize utilizing RBs in the passing game. I expect that to change with a year of Taylor self-scouting and evolving his offense. Teams that don’t use their backs in the passing game are behind the eight ball in terms of analytics. It would be foolish to continue to target backs at such a low rate. Part of the explanation could be the necessity of keeping their backs in protection to help a porous offensive line. The line will be better, as stud first-round pick Jonah Williams returns at left tackle, and expected growth from Billy Price. The Rams added a quality tackle the year Gurley broke out. Offensive line aside, the addition of Joe Burrow points to more targets in the passing game for Bengals RBs after he helped feed Clyde Edwards-Helaire at LSU. So if Mixon’s targets go up and he remains as effective as a runner, there is big-time upside in an offense that will be much better. I’m buying the Bengals offense this year. Projections: 290 rushes, 1,283 yds, 41 rec, 342 yds, 12 TD 7 Josh Jacobs- RB, Raiders The Raiders ran the ball at the eighth-highest rate in the league last season and return one of the better offensive lines in the NFL. Josh Jacobs had an extremely impressive rookie season, grading out as PFF’s second-ranked runner, despite battling a shoulder injury. Jacobs has as good a shot as any RB to lead the league in rushing. His value is dependent on two key factors. First is his role in the passing game. At Alabama, Jacobs was frequently used as a pass-catcher, while Damien Harris was more of the grinder. Jacobs flashed terrific hands and pass pro reps on film, which made his lack of involvement in the Raiders’ passing game last year curious. The second factor, his questionable durability outlook, is actually related to that lack of volume as a pass-catcher. The Raiders likely scaled back his workload in terms of the mental side of the game. Jacobs was not a featured player at Alabama, but the Raiders still saw him as their best pure runner. So, instead of giving a green rookie a full plate of assignments, they let him succeed as a runner while using Jalen Richard, who isn’t a great runner, to his strengths as a receiving back. It makes sense that in his second year, Jacobs’ role in the passing game will expand. In fact, Mike Mayock has already mentioned it. The potential league-winning question is how many touches can Jacobs handle, considering he's never been a workhorse and has had injury issues. My projections are aggressive because two old-school football minds spent a first-round pick on him and he’s done nothing but impress when on the field. Projections: 302 rushes, 1,344 yds, 35 rec, 271 yds, 11 TD 📷 8 Nick Chubb- RB, Browns The Browns offense underachieved under Freddie Kitchens last season. Baker Mayfield regressed, the offensive line played poorly, and the talented receivers underperformed. Nick Chubb still finished as RB7. Chubb’s production fell when Kareem Hunt returned from suspension, but he was still the preferred running option, and his effectiveness remained elite. 16 games of Hunt is a legitimate concern, but reports have him cross-training at wide receiver, which will allow the Browns to play both on the field at the same time. Chubb’s 77% rushing share will probably decline, but everything else about his situation looks better. Kevin Stefanski has had success with running backs, most recently Dalvin Cook. Both tackle spots have been upgraded, with Jedrick Wills on the left side and Jack Conklin on the right side. The Browns even added lead-blocker fullback Andy Janovich from Denver. Chubb averaged five yards per carry last year and has a real chance to approach that number again. He's currently being drafted with substantial drops in rushing share and efficiency baked in. The Browns will run more and be a better offense, so I’m buying Chubb everywhere. My only two concerns are his lack of involvement in the passing game and a chance of a lower TD rate due to all the prolific TD-scorers on the roster. Projections: 284 rushes, 1,418 yds, 20 rec, 153 yds, 12 TD 9 Michael Thomas- WR, Saints One of the biggest mistakes fantasy players make is placing too much emphasis on what happened last year. You aren’t drafting a player and simply getting last year’s stats. On the other hand, looking back at stats from two-plus years ago is probably even less relevant. The job of fantasy prognosticators is to project what will happen this year, and in many cases, while that does involve analyzing what happened last year, it is often overstated. Football factors, such as situation, film, coaching, and schedule are difficult to quantify in projections, but insight into more than just the math can give you an edge. I try to mix logical football reasons based on film study and a deeper understanding of the game when projecting next season. There was no 2018 or 2017 data that would suggest Michael Thomas would command 185 targets in 2019. What could have been predicted was the impact of losing Mark Ingram and the lack of development from potential ancillary receiving options, in addition to the foreseeable uptick in passing attempts. Keep this in mind when I paint possible scenarios in order to go out on a limb and separate my rankings from the cookie-cutter chalk. Imagine the backlash a fantasy expert would have gotten for ranking Thomas in the top-five last offseason. Thomas had a 34% target share last season. He’s still basically the same player as he was in 2018 when he had a 28% target share, and there is no reason to expect 180+ targets again. The Saints passed more last year than they did in 2017 and 2018, Drew Brees is a year older, and Emmanuel Sanders is now a legitimate second option. Thomas has a high floor, but even my projection of 163 targets might be aggressive given his 147 targets in 2018 and 149 in 2017. Projections: 163 targets, 129 rec, 1,486 yds, 8 TD 10 Jonathan Taylor- RB, Colts A rookie rounds out my top 10, but not the one you might expect. Full disclosure: I am a draftnik. I may tend to overvalue rookies. And the interesting thing here is that I didn’t even have Jonathan Taylor as a top-three back in my pre-draft RB rankings. I wasn’t exactly low on him, I just loved Dobbins and CEH, and thought Swift had upside as a pass-catcher. So why am I ranking Taylor so high? Let’s look at the facts. One of the greatest runners in the history of college football was drafted with the 41st pick, the sweet spot for RBs, by the Colts after a trade-up. The Colts have the best offensive line in football, a bright and productive offensive coaching staff, and a veteran quarterback who has had a ton of success checking at the line of scrimmage and generally utilizing running backs throughout his career. The elephant in the room is Marlon Mack, who was drafted by the Colts with the 143rd pick in 2017 and has ranked as the 28th, 37th, and 31st running back by PFF in the past three seasons. Mack is a good player, but the Colts did not use a premium pick on a workhorse with the goal of splitting the workload evenly. I’m actually more concerned with Hines taking snaps away in full-PPR leagues. The Colts will finish in the top-five in rushing attempts this season (poor division helps), and Taylor will win leagues. He’s not a great receiver and I am somewhat concerned that three of my top ten running backs have receiving workload question marks. Full-PPR drafters can adjust accordingly. Projections: 282 rushes, 1,316 yds, 21 rec, 178 yds, 12 TD Thanks for reading, and stay tuned for rankings 11-20 and positional rankings in the coming days.
2020.08.12 20:55 notneurologicalI require this to be satire, what the fuck
Earlier today I’m very pissed off in learning my daughter isn’t a virgin anymore. She’s 24 years old, being a deep rooted Alabama Christian family devoted to our lives in the military, my heart genuinely hurts. She drinks alcohol, and I’m almost certain she’s been doing marijuana. I learned this because a buddy of mine was in a local bar, saw her and phoned me to tell me. Of course I showed up within minutes my daughters safety is at risk. She was with some disgusting guy presumably a drug dealer with tattoos and a facial hoop in his lip. Upon catching her in the act she way extremely irate instantly and said she’s BEEN “dating” him and she’s moving out. Mentioned something about a fans only and even went on to give me the finger. I don’t know what a fans only is, but I will soon find out. I was embarrassed. I’m hurt, I’m distraught and disgusted. But I can’t let her move out, I can’t. I won’t let that happen. I’ve cancelled her credit cards, repossessed the car that WE pay for and are currently trying to get court orders to send her to rehab. Called her job at a local deli to let them know she’s been doing drugs and they’ve since terminated her. As a parent, my heart goes out to all of the parents (especially military) with unruly children that do not comply with commands. I don’t know where I’ve went wrong, but it makes me sick knowing my baby girl has possibly been taken advantage of due to marijuana. Sex absolutely DOES NOT need to occur unless you’re creating an infant, MARRIED. It is not meant for “fun”. This is where I stand on this, and my daughter will not be a porn star. I will not let her become the scum of society. Also for you people coming on my profile to demean me, this is a place to vent! I did not make a Facebook page to be harassed in my messages because you don’t agree with logic! What in the hell us wrong with society today.
2020.08.09 03:48 nathandipietro24 [M4F] US/Anywhere - Future trucker looking for someone to call home
I’ll just be upfront, I’m really fucking lonely and I want to fall in love with a woman who will actually love me back. I’m currently staying in Gary, IN until the 28th for a CDL training program. Once I finish and hopefully earn my CDL, I will be entering Phase 2 of the program and go on the road with an instructor for 3-4 weeks. Then in Phase 3 I will be out driving on my own as an OTR (Over The Road) Flatbed Truck Driver. I’m really excited and grateful for this opportunity, and I have many reasons for wanting to do this. But one of the drawbacks is that once I’m out on the road, dating will become a lot harder. Which is why I’m making this post. STATS: Hi, my name is Nathan. I’m 24 years old, I was born and raised in Florida, and I relocated to Alabama back in March of this year. Like a day or two before the whole country shut itself down. This is what I look like. I’m about 5’11” (180.34 cm) and currently 220 lbs (99.79 kg). I used to weigh roughly 270 lbs (122.47 kg) back in 2018, then I managed to drop down to 200 lbs (90.72 kg) via calorie counting and exercise. I gained back like 30 lbs (13.61 kg) since the pandemic started, but I’m slowly losing the weight again. I’ve been keeping my head shaved since 2017, and I’m currently regrowing my beard for the thousandth time. I still have plenty of hair everywhere else, just not the one place where it matters most. 😂 VALUES: Religiously I was raised as a Christian, but have been an atheist for about 4-5 years now. Politically I consider myself an eco-socialist and I hold many progressive values, but I am also very pro-gun. As for what I want out of a relationship, marriage has always been what I’ve wanted since I was old enough to understand what it meant to get married. I also always wanted to be a father, but due to the effects that climate change will have on the world one day, I feel that it would be immoral to bring new life into an already dying world. Which is why if I ever decide to become a father, it will be via adopting/fostering kids. LIKES: I have a lot of what most people would consider to be nerdy interests: anime, video games, electronics, cars, guns, etc. I also enjoy reading, singing, hiking, shooting, and cooking. Speaking of cooking, once I start my job, I intend on transitioning to a vegan diet. I also want to start new hobbies like archery, rock climbing, PC building, and I want to get back into MMA. WEAKNESSES: Although I have not been diagnosed yet (I plan on seeing a psychiatrist once my job’s health insurance benefits kick in), I am 10000% certain that I have Autism Spectrum Disorder as well as Auditory Processing Disorder. Being autistic has made my childhood really rough, due to not understanding a lot of nonverbal social cues (there’s a lot more to it that would take a separate and equally long post to explain, so I’ll leave it out of this one). I was also admittedly a really weird and cringy little shit. But I’ve long since learned how to live with it and I can thrive socially as an adult. As for my APD, that is something that still interferes with my life at times. Basically the part of my brain that deals with human language will glitch at times and not properly decipher the sounds that the ears will receive. I’ll still hear the verbal sounds you make, but every now and then my brain will misinterpret some words you say as either different words, mumbles, or straight up gibberish. So please forgive me in advance for when I inevitably and often ask you to repeat certain parts of what you say. SEEKS: The only “pre-requisites” that I’d say I have would be that you: are single and not pining for anyone else, share some of the same interests and passions that I do, or are at least willing to explore each other’s interests; are from the US/Canada or willing to relocate one day, do not want any or more biological kids, and won’t try to change me into someone I’m not nor have any desire to be. I do have my preferences, as does everyone else, but you don’t have to meet every one of them or even most of them. However I also don’t see any point in two people, who have little to nothing in common and want completely different things in a relationship, still get together to “see how it goes”. Compatibility is just as important as connection, and I wouldn’t want us to waste each other’s time. If you’ve managed to get through that whole ass essay and you’re still interested in talking, feel free to message me on here via direct chat. I do prefer using iMessage or Facebook Messenger though, so after a while when I’m comfortable enough I’ll send you my number. Or if you’d prefer, we could take the conversation to Instagram or Discord. Also I apologize if this post comes off as overly blunt and/or aggressive. I’m just tired, both literally and emotionally. I promise I’m more amiable in real life and in conversation, and I can be really damn sweet and funny too. 😊
2020.08.09 03:35 nathandipietro24 [M4F] US/Anywhere - Future trucker looking for someone to call home
I’ll just be upfront, I’m really fucking lonely and I want to fall in love with a woman who will actually love me back. I’m currently staying in Gary, IN until the 28th for a CDL training program. Once I finish and hopefully earn my CDL, I will be entering Phase 2 of the program and go on the road with an instructor for 3-4 weeks. Then in Phase 3 I will be out driving on my own as an OTR (Over The Road) Flatbed Truck Driver. I’m really excited and grateful for this opportunity, and I have many reasons for wanting to do this. But one of the drawbacks is that once I’m out on the road, dating will become a lot harder. Which is why I’m making this post. STATS: Hi, my name is Nathan. I’m 24 years old, I was born and raised in Florida, and I relocated to Alabama back in March of this year. Like a day or two before the whole country shut itself down. This is what I look like. I’m about 5’11” (180.34 cm) and currently 220 lbs (99.79 kg). I used to weigh roughly 270 lbs (122.47 kg) back in 2018, then I managed to drop down to 200 lbs (90.72 kg) via calorie counting and exercise. I gained back like 30 lbs (13.61 kg) since the pandemic started, but I’m slowly losing the weight again. I’ve been keeping my head shaved since 2017, and I’m currently regrowing my beard for the thousandth time. I still have plenty of hair everywhere else, just not the one place where it matters most. 😂 VALUES: Religiously I was raised as a Christian, but have been an atheist for about 4-5 years now. Politically I consider myself an eco-socialist and I hold many progressive values, but I am also very pro-gun. As for what I want out of a relationship, marriage has always been what I’ve wanted since I was old enough to understand what it meant to get married. I also always wanted to be a father, but due to the effects that climate change will have on the world one day, I feel that it would be immoral to bring new life into an already dying world. Which is why if I ever decide to become a father, it will be via adopting/fostering kids. LIKES: I have a lot of what most people would consider to be nerdy interests: anime, video games, electronics, cars, guns, etc. I also enjoy reading, singing, hiking, shooting, and cooking. Speaking of cooking, once I start my job, I intend on transitioning to a vegan diet. I also want to start new hobbies like archery, rock climbing, PC building, and I want to get back into MMA. WEAKNESSES: Although I have not been diagnosed yet (I plan on seeing a psychiatrist once my job’s health insurance benefits kick in), I am 10000% certain that I have Autism Spectrum Disorder as well as Auditory Processing Disorder. Being autistic has made my childhood really rough, due to not understanding a lot of nonverbal social cues (there’s a lot more to it that would take a separate and equally long post to explain, so I’ll leave it out of this one). I was also admittedly a really weird and cringy little shit. But I’ve long since learned how to live with it and I can thrive socially as an adult. As for my APD, that is something that still interferes with my life at times. Basically the part of my brain that deals with human language will glitch at times and not properly decipher the sounds that the ears will receive. I’ll still hear the verbal sounds you make, but every now and then my brain will misinterpret some words you say as either different words, mumbles, or straight up gibberish. So please forgive me in advance for when I inevitably and often ask you to repeat certain parts of what you say. SEEKS: The only “pre-requisites” that I’d say I have would be that you: are single and not pining for anyone else, share some of the same interests and passions that I do, or are at least willing to explore each other’s interests; are from the US/Canada or willing to relocate one day, do not want any or more biological kids, and won’t try to change me into someone I’m not nor have any desire to be. I do have my preferences, as does everyone else, but you don’t have to meet every one of them or even most of them. However I also don’t see any point in two people, who have little to nothing in common and want completely different things in a relationship, still get together to “see how it goes”. Compatibility is just as important as connection, and I wouldn’t want us to waste each other’s time. If you’ve managed to get through that whole ass essay and you’re still interested in talking, feel free to message me on here via private message or direct chat. I do prefer using iMessage or Facebook Messenger, so after a while when I’m comfortable enough I’ll send you my number. Or if you’d prefer, we could take the conversation to Instagram or Discord. Also, I apologize if this post comes off as overly blunt and/or aggressive. I’m just tired, both literally and emotionally. I promise I’m more amiable in real life and in conversation, and I can be really damn sweet and funny too. 😊
2020.08.09 02:08 CapybaraWookiee[S] Capy's Survivor: Pearl Island (S7)
Hello, and welcome or welcome back to Capy's Survivor! This season we are going to the magnificent Pearl Islands! We are once again playing the game of outwitting, outplaying, and outlasting your fellow castaways, whether that be by flirtatious behavior, backstabbing your opponents, or making plenty of allies. This is Capy's Survivor: Pearl Islands! MEET THE CASTAWAYS: Drake Tribe:
Amos Hogan, 29, Yoga Instructor
Amos was bullied for most of his life and wanted to find an outlet to escape from those sorts of stresses. When he was 16, he got into yoga and it helped him find peace of mind that helped him get through his troubles. He knows Survivor is the ultimate stress test and he's always up for a challenge. So he's going into Survivor to push his mind and body to the limits. (made by u/SilverOwl24)
Nick Ficarra, 27, Electrician
Nick grew up with lawyer parents and was never interested in law. Instead, he's interested in punk rock music, piercings & tattoos. He's seen as the black sheep of his family. When he's not working at his job as an electrician, he's instead rocking out with his band and getting gigs. He's going into Survivor to win & he won't change a thing about himself. If people see him as rude and don't want to work with him, then he will gladly write their names down. (made by u/SilverOwl24)
Dexter "Dex" Velour, 38, YouTube Beauty Guru
Dex is very popular in the beauty community and on youtube in general, he found out through survivor because of the season 3 winner May. They became close outside the show and she urged him to apply. Dex is known to con and keep tabs on people to make sure they stay in line. He hopes to become a top dog and be the head of an alliance and get to the end. (made by u/bheart_)
Carter Haynes, 24, Barista and Artist
Carter had a rough childhood. Ever since he was a child, Carter had to work part-time jobs to help his lower-class family. Being the eldest of three kids, Carter also had to help his parents with taking care of said siblings, as neither parent really had the time to do so. Carter always managed to get through, though. No matter how hard life had seemed, Carter continued to fight and continued to survive. And in a game like SURVIVOR, that's exactly what you need. He now works as a part-time barista and a full-time artist. That's his dream - be like Van Gogh, Picasso, etc. He hopes that this game might help him out with a said dream. (made by u/TDSwaggyBoy)
June Willis, 28, Auto Mechanic
As a kid, people always told June that something's wrong with her. She was always a very adventurous and wild child. She didn't enjoy doing what her parents told her to do, and always wanted to do things her way. Growing up, June was living in a very strict household, one that disowned her when she came out to them as a lesbian. Getting rejected by her own parents like that stung, but June kept on surviving. She went to live with her loving and open-minded uncle and aunt and is now still living with them at 28. She's single and ready to mingle and is definitely open to a showmance. How well will that work out for her? Let's see. (made by u/TDSwaggyBoy)
Sanna Hensen-Omann, 36, Public Defender
Defender of the law, Sanna is a major influence in the courts. Winner of awards and honors, she seeks to have in her life the honor necessary to fight for those who need a lot of support. A happy woman with her family and friends who give her the greatest support that life could give. (made by u/zohnster)
Fadia Lia Jensen, 19, Signer
Her face shows the marks of violence suffered in her own home. Today, as an adult, she seeks in music a way to forget the past she suffered. A loving and very intelligent girl, she has few friends, but the ones she has helped her a lot to endure the difficulties. (made by u/zohnster)
Neleh Brown, 47, Police Office
Neleh grew up in a small town in the middle of Alabama, and ever since she was young she’s wanted to explore outside of her small town. Unfortunately, Neleh’s family couldn’t afford to send her to college, and her grades were also below average which made her attending college harder. Neleh became a police officer and found love when she met her wife Amanda working as a secretary in the police station. Neleh and Amanda became fast friends and later dated which her parents disapproved of. Her parents kicked her out and she moved in with Amanda where both started a family. She has two sons, and plans to win the money for them, and provide them opportunities she was never able to have. (made by u/Pray_The_Gay_To_Come)
Bradley "Brad" Karev, 31, Paramedic
Brad is a paramedic from Houston, TX. He is a person that people automatically like when they meet him as he is such a positive person. He has recently discovered a great love of the outdoors and has taken to kayaking/hiking/camping/etc. Given this new passion of his he felt it was a great time to test his limits by taking part in Survivor! This is his second time applying for the show after making it to the final casting round and he feels like this will be his season. (made by u/docdoc5)
Romeo Karev, 28, Musician
Romeo is a musician from Houston, TX. He is actually the younger brother of Brad. He attended casting along with his brother on a whim and figured that he could win the show just as easily as his brother. He has always competed with his brother and feels like this will be the final test to prove which of them is the better sibling. (made by u/docdoc5)
Tara Lynn Fields, 22, Stripper
Tara is a dancer living in Las Vegas, NV. She has taken to exotic dancing to earn additional income so that she can make a huge move to a city that she feels will appreciate her more. She auditioned for Survivor on a whim thinking that she can outsmart the competition to make it all the way to the end. (made by u/docdoc5)
Georgia is Couples Therapist so she knows what makes people tick. She is a married mom with 3 kids. She tends to be a warm and nurturing woman, she's from the south and has some Christian morals. She loves to help people and hopes that she is able to connect with people on a deeper level and go far. (made by u/bheart_)
Emerson Olive, 26, Park Ranger
Emerson is a tough and cocky fighter, He's always ready to start a fight. He goes by the rules and ready to claw his way to the top. He loves the outdoors and any types of sports, he's not the cleanest which does turn people off from him but she doesn't really care. He hopes to dominate the game and score the win. (made by u/bheart_)
Allison "Allie" Peterson, 64, Journalist
A successful journalist, Allison is regarded as one of the best journalists in the US. Working hard to achieve her goal, Allie is not afraid of getting blood on her hands. Making slightly controversial pieces in the past as she simply wants to have the truth out there, Allie is a firm believer in justice. Currently living with her husband of 38 years, Allie hopes to win. She's getting very old, after all. While Allie doesn't plan on retiring any time soon, she thinks a million bucks in her bank account will definitely be a nice thing to have. (made by u/TDSwaggyBoy)
Benjamin "Ben" Castello, 29, Waiter
Son of Colombian immigrants, Ben is a very happy young man with his ordinary life in Hawaii. He wakes up, works part-time in a restaurant, goes for a walk with his friends, surfs a little, and then ends his days watching the sunset with his girlfriend. He doesn't want more than that: if he lived only with those small things in life, he would be very happy. His life is a game of friendship, peace, tranquility, and companionship. He's not a fight guy, but if you mess with his friends, you can be sure he'll punch you in the face. (made by u/zohnster)
The Season:Capy's Survivor: Pearl Islands Episode 1:The host welcomes the tribes to the camp, after getting off the boat. He announces that for the first time since Marquesas, there will be no twist deciding the tribes. After this announcement, he announces the tribes. On the Drake Tribe is Amos, Carter, Dex, Fadia, June, Neleh, Nick, and Sanna. On the Morgan Tribe is Allie, Ben, Brad, Emerson, Georgia, River, Romeo, and Tara. After announcing the tribes, he tells them that they can head back to their respective camps to settle in before their first immunity challenge tomorrow. At the Drake camp, Dexter, Neleh, and Sanna connect immediately, and they form a very early final three pact. Amos, Carter, Fadia, and June form another alliance to combat that one. Due to Dex knowing about the alliance, he hopes to get Nick as a swing vote. At the Morgan camp, River isn’t hesitating to form an alliance, she chooses Allie because she seems nice and she could be helpful when it comes to mental challenges. She also chooses Romeo because he can be used as a meatshield. She approaches Ben for the same very reason. Brad knows about this alliance, and knowing his brother is in the alliance (Romeo), he wants to form a separate alliance, so he approaches Tara, Emerson, and Georgia with a deal for alliances. Georgia declines because she wants to hang low and play more under-the-radar, at least for the early game. But Emerson and Tara accept, and Brad hopes he earned Georgia’s trust and vote by approaching her, as River did not. The Morgan tribe wins the immunity challenge, also winning water-proof matches. This means that the Drake tribe will be going to tribal. At the Drake camp, Fadia isolates herself, feeling as though she caused her tribe to not win, quitting her alliance in the process, but saying she will still vote with them. They say that they are voting for Neleh, which is a lie, as they are planning on voting their old ally out. They convince Nick to vote with them, as she is untrustworthy for joining the alliance, just to leave it a couple of days into the game. Nick tells the alliance of Sanna, Neleh, and Dex about this, and he claims it was Amos’ scheme. They approach Fadia with the plan, and she agrees to vote with them for Amos. River, even though she is the creator of the alliance, quits the alliance and isolates herself, because even though her tribe won, it was just barely, and she thinks she is the main cause of that. At tribal council, by a vote 5-3, Amos, the tribe has spoken. Episode 2:The Drake tribe wins the reward challenge, winning themselves the first of three pieces of a treasure map to hidden treasure. They also send Carter to loot one item from the opposing tribes camp, he takes their matches. The Morgan tribe, even though they are now match-less, they still win the immunity challenge, meaning that the Drake tribe will be going to their second tribal in a row. At the Morgan camp, the alliance of Allie, Ben, and Romeo dissolves since their leader, River, left the alliance. Sanna, Dex, and Neleh approach Nick saying that they are voting off Carter, as he is a psychical threat. But Carter and June approach Fadia and Nick, claiming that Dex should be the one going home, as he is untrustworthy, and he holds the tribe back in challenges. At tribal council, by a vote of 4-3, Dex, the tribe has spoken. Episode 3:The Drake tribe wins both reward and their first immunity challenge. Drake also wins their second piece of the treasure map, only one remaining now. They steal a couple of pieces of firewood from the opposing tribes’ camp. At the Morgan tribe, River approaches her old alliance, stating that she knows she betrayed them, but she wants Brad gone, as he is a psychical threat to their game at the moment. While Allison is hesitant at first, as she believes you should wait until near-merge to vote out people who can help in challenges. But Romeo rallying for getting his brother out sparks her interest more. While the other alliance is planning on voting out River, as she has proven to be untrustworthy. At tribal council, there is a tie, and only then does River realize her mistake in not approaching someone else, but shockingly it’s not Allie who wants to change her vote, it’s Ben, as he thinks that River can’t be trusted. At tribal council, by a vote of 4-4, and a revote of 4-2, River, the tribe has spoken. Episode 4:Drake wins their third reward challenge, also winning the final piece of the map. That finally leads them to the buried treasure, which contains luxury items to make camp life easier. They also steal more firewood from the Morgan camp. The Drake tribe also wins immunity, and, because of the pirate theme this season, they get to kidnap a player off the other tribe to bring onto their tribe. They choose Brad, as they know he is good in psychical challenges. By kidnapping him, they also give him immunity because he can skip tribal council. Fadia and Sanna have a fight about not Sanna not doing her part in helping around camp. Tara, Emerson, and Brad become a very strong alliance, even though Brad is skipping tribal council that night. Allie and Ben want to vote for Georgia because she is a social threat. But Romeo isn’t for it, and he approaches the other alliance without his alliance knowing, and tells them what they are doing and that he will vote with them in exchange for safety. They agree to these terms and say they are voting for Allison, one, because if they don’t get her out now, she might float her way to the end, and two, with this new information, that puts a bigger target on her back. Allie and Ben approach Emerson, asking him to vote with them, because Georgia will socialize her way out of being the target. He acts convinced. At tribal council, by a vote of 4-2, Allie, the tribe has spoken. Episode 5:Brad will be competing with the Drake tribe for only this reward challenge, as he was kidnapped by them, but will head back to camp with the Morgan tribe afterward. Despite this, the Morgan tribe wins their first reward challenge, winning a bunch of luxury items and their first piece of the treasure map. The Drake tribe secures its third immunity. At the Drake tribe, Fadia and Neleh have a major fight over Fadia arguing with Sanna about not doing anything, but she is truly the one not pitching in. At the Morgan camp, tensions are rising due to them having to vote out another person. Emerson, Brad, and Tara tell Ben and Romeo that they will be voting for Georgia. Romeo doesn’t agree, so he makes plans with Georgia and Ben to try to rock out someone. But Ben doesn’t want to take the risk of getting rocked out. At tribal council, by a vote 4-2, Georgia, the tribe has spoken. Episode 6:The Morgan tribe wins the reward challenge, winning their second piece of the treasure map and stealing a blanket from the Drake tribe. They also win the immunity, sending Drake to tribal council for the first time since episode 2. June and Carter hatch a deal with Neleh and Sanna, in exchange for voting together, they eliminate Fadia, who has been a target since day one for her prowess in challenges and socially, and because she causes constant drama at camp. They agree, But then Nick and Fadia approach Carter and June with a plan to vote out Neleh, as she is an under-the-radar player, who might float her way to the end. But since they just sold their souls (votes) to Neleh and Sanna, they don’t think its a good idea to get on their bad side right now. At tribal council, by a vote of 4-2, Fadia, the tribe has spoken. Episode 7:When the tribes head over to the immunity challenges, they see a strange sight, standing by the host is 6 other people, as they get closer, they realize those six people are the six eliminated castaways. The host announces that this is the Outcast twist. There will be 3 teams competing in the immunity challenge, and the Outcast twist works like this. If The Outcasts beat one tribe, that tribe will have to go to Tribal Council and vote a player off. The Outcasts will then vote one player back into the game. If the Outcasts beat both tribes, Morgan and Drake will both go to Tribal Council, and both vote a player off. The Outcasts would then vote two players back into the game in that scenario. If both Drake and Morgan win, The Outcasts' chance to get back in the game will be forfeited. The Outcasts win the immunity and they will be voting two people back into the game. The alliance of Emerson, Tara, and Brad dissolve, so they don’t have a target on their back heading into the double-elimination, and the merge. At the Drake camp, Carter and June are targeting Sanna, while Sanna and Neleh are targeting Carter. Both of the duos approach Nick, and he decides on the person he most deems a threat comes to the merge, as he knows it is happening soon. At the Morgan camp, Brad and Romeo decide to team up against Brad’s former allies Tara and Emerson, as they are threats strategically and psychically, they also convince Ben to vote with them in exchange for safety. Emerson and Tara also offer the same thing, saying they are voting Romeo out, and Ben thinks, about who he should align with, and who he should vote out the psychical threat, or strategic threat. Everyone arrives at the tribal council area, and sit down on the jury benches. The host announces that the Drake tribe is going first. At tribal council (A), by a vote of 3-2, Carter, the tribe has spoken. The host then announces that the Morgan tribe is up next. At tribal council (B), by a vote of 3-2, Tara, the tribe has spoken. Ben decided strategic is better to vote out, as it is better to align yourself with challenge beasts come to the merge. The host finally calls up the Outcasts, and they said, even though it was a hard decision, as everyone wanted to come back into the game, they decided that the first and last person eliminated should return. Therefore, Amos and Fadia are headed back into the game. Episode 8:The host calls the contestants to the challenge area, and announces the merge. He also congratulates Amos, Ben, Brad, Emerson, Fadia, June, Neleh, Nick, Romeo, and Sanna on making it to the merge. Neleh and Sanna keep their final two pact, as they always intended. They also ally with Amos, Fadia, June, and Nick as the original Drake tribe, for votes. Ben, Brad, Emerson, and Romeo align as the original Morgan tribe, and hope to find a weak spot in the other alliance, and hope to poke it enough so that they either dissolve or vote one of their own members out. Neleh wins the immunity challenge. The Morgan tribe attempts to convince June that Nick is more of a threat than any of them and that they will just boot her when they need to. She disagrees, saying that they will boot the outcasts. The Drake alliance decides on voting out Romeo, as he is untrustworthy, a psychical threat, and a strategic threat. At tribal council, by a vote of 6-4, Romeo, the tribe has spoken. Episode 9: Neleh wins the reward challenge, and already being in the majority alliance, decides to bring her final two partners, Sanna, for the reward instead of trying to gain someone’s trust. Neleh wins her second immunity in a row, painting a big target on her and Sanna’s back, making Neleh feel like she just made a big mistake. The Drake alliance decide that Fadia is the best target, even though she is in their alliance, they can spare the vote. But Amos tells Fadia about this, who goes to Emerson, Brad, and Ben with this info, and they tell them that they will vote with them for safety. They agree, and with this Emerson also tells them that June told the alliance that the Drake alliance would vote out the outcast if worst comes to worst, with this information, Fadia goes and blackmails Julie with it, saying that if she doesn’t give them their vote, she will get her eliminated. Julie agrees, and together they decide that Nick is their biggest threat, pulling a Borneo and completely forgetting in the heat of the moment that Neleh has won all three individual challenges. At tribal council, by a vote of 6-3, Nick, the tribe has spoken. Episode 10:June wins reward and takes Fadia with her. Ben wins the immunity challenge. Sanna and Neleh tell Fadia, Amos, and June that they will be voting for Brad. But they keep June and Amos afterward to tell them that they are really voting for Fadia. Amos obviously, and obliviously tells Fadia about this, who takes June (unwillingly) to the Morgan tribe, and tells them the situation. They agree, but under one condition, they have to vote Amos out. Fadia doesn’t want to, but if it means saving herself, then she will. Once again she “convinces” June to vote with them in exchange for not revealing the secret and painting a target on June’s back. At tribal council, by a vote of 5-3, Amos, the tribe has spoken. Episode 11:June wins her second reward challenge in a row, whilst Ben wins his second immunity in a row. June is approached by the Morgan tribe, and they tell her that they are planning on voting out Fadia in the next tribal. June happily agrees, but after thinking, if Fadia finds out, she will tell everyone about revealing her alliances’ information to the rival alliance, and she will be eliminated. Also, eliminating Fadia would mean that their alliance would be neck-and-neck in votes with the other alliance. Due to not sitting well with the rest of the castaways recently, the Drake alliance decides to vote for Emerson. At tribal council, by a vote of 4-3, Emerson, the tribe has spoken. Episode 12:Sanna, June, and Ben beat Brad, Fadia, and Neleh in the reward challenge. Ben wins immunity for the third time in a row. Brad and Ben plan on voting for June, and Fadia, whilst hesitant, decides to vote with them, as she is certain that her alliance is voting for her. Her suspicions are correct, June, Sanna, and Neleh are targeting Fadia, but they tell her they are voting for Brad, trying to cause a 3-2-1 vote. At tribal council, there is a tie between June and Fadia, and there must be a revote. The revote is two votes June and two votes Fadia. Meaning that for the first time ever in the history of Capy’s Survivor, there will be a rock draw. The host calls Neleh, Sanna, and Brad up to draw rocks, as Ben has immunity. He instructs them to flip over their rocks. Brad, the tribe has spoken. Episode 13:June shares her reward with Ben, hoping to gain his vote. Neleh just barely wins immunity over Ben, ending his streak. Despite her efforts, Ben and Fadia agree that they are voting June, and try to convince Sanna and Neleh. Afterward, they decide that they deny the offer, that Fadia is a much bigger threat than June in all aspects. At tribal council, by a vote of 3-2, Fadia, the tribe has spoken. Finale, Part 1:Ben wins his fourth immunity. Sanna and Neleh are planning on voting for June. But June and Ben are planning on voting for Neleh and hoping to cause a fire-making challenge, as they think June would beat Neleh. But June doesn’t think so and thinks it should be Sanna, and Jake doesn’t argue back, making June think that he agrees, when he is really just getting her eliminated. At tribal council, by a vote of 2-1-1, June, the tribe has spoken. Finale, Part 2:Neleh wins the final immunity. Knowing that she will win against Sanna, but not Ben, and she also has had a final two pact and a close friendship with Sanna all season, Neleh chooses Sanna to bring to the reunion with her. At tribal council, by a vote of 1-0, Ben, the tribe has spoken. The Reunion:At the Reunion, after Sanna and Neleh both state their cases. Neleh states that she won 5 challenges in all, whilst Sanna only won 2, and one of those was a group challenge. Also, stating that she also got a lot less blood on her hands than Sanna. Sanna retaliates with she could have won more challenges if she had not allied with Neleh, a challenge beast. She also said that the only reason she had blood on her hands was that Neleh relied on her to do all the dirty work. Congratulation, Neleh Brown, you are the winner of Capy’s Survivor: Pearl Islands! My Opinions:This was a similar situation to Marquesas, except with less flashy moves. Was an amazing cast, and a good season, but everyone relied on their alliances too much. Neleh and Sanna were a power duo and deserved to make it to the end. Neleh was definitely a deserving winner. Fadia was the evilest person on the planet. June and Fadia both made it surprisingly far, despite seeming to have their name on the block week in and week out. Ben was a challenge beast. River went too early, I think she could’ve been a real competitor. Despite starting out in a minority alliance, and then being just the two of them with a season full of giant alliances, I don’t even know how Neleh and Sanna survived. Ben’s move at the final four was genius. That’s all I have to say. Romeo would probably be the best pre-jury pick of this season (what I mean by that is the person on the pre-jury who I think would have done well if they went farther. Examples are Lexie in season 4, Nina in Season 5, and Mariangel in Season 6). I'm also happy about the first-ever rock draw! Possible All-Stars:Neleh, Sanna, Ben, June, Fadia, Brad, Romeo Leave your opinions about future all-stars, your favorites, and the season itself down below. All-Star polls will be out shortly
2020.08.06 00:30 trifletrufflesThad Christian-murdered on August 30, 1965 in Central City, Alabama-Closed Case under the Civil Rights Division Emmett Till Act
On August 30, 1965, Thad Christian, a 54-year-old black man, was fatally shot by Robert Haynes. According to an FBI investigative report from 1965, Thad and a friend were fishing beside a creek in the rural community of Central City, west of Anniston, Alabama. Robert, seeing the men fishing, told the men to leave but "did not say whether or not he owned the property." Robert later returned as the two men were putting their fishing gear in the car. Robert "pointed a 16-gauge shotgun out the window of his car at [Thad] and fired a round striking [Thad] in the abdomen." Thad died shortly thereafter of a gunshot wound to the abdomen. Robert pleaded guilty to first-degree manslaughter and was sentenced to five years in prison. He later died in an automobile accident in December 1968. Based on media coverage of the incident, in 2009, the FBI initiated a review of the circumstances surrounding Thad's death pursuant to the Department of Justice's Cold Case Initiative under the Civil Rights Division's Emmett Till Act. As part of its investigation, the FBI attempted to obtain investigation files from the Anniston Police Department, the Calhoun County District Attorney’s Office, the Calhoun County Circuit Clerk’s Office, the DeKalb County Jail, and the Alabama Bureau of Investigation. However, the "few records that had been retained were damaged by water and illegible." The agents did find a brief FBI investigative file from 1965. It stated that on the evening of the shooting, Sheriff Roy Snead of Anniston, Alabama received a call to go to the scene of a shooting near Jacksonville, Alabama. Sheriff Snead's investigation revealed that Thad and "several other African-American men had been fishing on a creek bank that afternoon." Robert came by and told the men to leave, but did not say whether or not he was the owner of the property. At approximately 7:00 p.m., Robert returned to the creek bank where "the men were now at their cars putting away their fishing gear." Robert "stuck a shotgun out of his car window and fired a close-range shot at [Thad], striking him in the abdomen and fatally wounding him." Less than an hour after the shooting, Robert was taken into custody at his home in Jacksonville. Witnesses identified Robert as the man who had shot Thad. Robert was charged with murder and placed in the Calhoun County Jail in Anniston. As part of its current investigation, the FBI located and interviewed several family members or people who knew Thad (names and relationships were redacted in the closing memorandum). They recalled that Thad went fishing on the day of the incident with his friend, Shelly Kirby, at a nearby creek and that Robert did not actually own the land on which Thad was fishing. Due to a lack of existing land records, it is impossible to verify whether Robert owned the land. They also mentioned rumors that Robert told people that he had always wanted to “kill a n*****.” They noted that Robert was sentenced to serve five years at a work camp in Fort Payne, Alabama but there were rumors that Robert had escaped from the work camp but was later captured and that he committed suicide following his release from the work camp. Robert's death certificate showed he was killed in an automobile accident a little over three years after murdering Thad. The Department of Justice closed Thad's case case after noting that that "this matter does not constitute a prosecutable violation of the federal criminal civil rights statutes" as Robert is deceased; therefore, "there are no prosecutable subjects in the present case." Even if Robert were alive, prior to 1994, federal criminal civil rights violations were not capital offenses so there was a 5-year statute of limitations. In 1994, some of these civil rights statutes were amended to provide the death penalty for violations resulting in death thus eliminating the statute of limitations. However, the Ex Post Facto Clause of the Constitution prohibits the retroactive application of the 1994 amendment. While the Civil Rights Division has used “non-civil rights statutes to overcome the statute of limitations challenge in certain cases, such as those occurring on federal land and kidnapping resulting in death, the facts of the present do not lend themselves to federal prosecution under other federal statutes.” Links: https://www.justice.gov/crt/case-document/thad-christian-notice-close-file https://www.crmvet.org/docs/65_sclc_murder_al.pdf I came across the Department of Justice’s cold case initiative while reading an article discussing journalists’ efforts to install a billboard on an Arkansas highway aimed at solving the 1954 lynching of Isadore Banks. The Civil Rights Division of the United States Department of Justice launched a website (linked above) to make information about the department’s investigation of cold cases from the Civil Rights Era more accessible to the public. Over the years, the Department “has assisted in prosecuting Edgar Ray Killen in 2005, making him the eighth defendant convicted for the 1964 murders of three civil rights workers in Philadelphia, Mississippi (the "Mississippi Burning" case); secured life sentences in 2003 against the perpetrators of the 1963 Sixteenth Street Baptist Church bombing in Birmingham, Alabama; and secured a federal conviction and life sentence of James Ford Seale for the kidnapping and murder of two teenagers in Franklin County, Mississippi in 1964.” Congress recognized the importance of these federal efforts when it enacted the Emmett Till Unsolved Civil Rights Crime Act in 2008. Unfortunately, in many cases “legal and evidentiary barriers prevent the Department from moving forward with prosecution." In each case that is not prosecutable, the Department of Justice wrote a closing memo explaining the investigative steps taken and the basis for their conclusion. To date, the Department of Justice has uploaded 115 closing memos. I hope to be able to post on all of the closed cases as I share in the belief with the Department of Justice that “these stories should be told [as] there is value in a public reckoning with the history of racial violence and the complicity of government officials.” Other posts from the Department of Justice's Cold Case Initiative:
Isadore Banks-unsolved murder in Marion, Arkansas-June 1954
2020.07.30 17:11 dwsmith1982Sharon Wellington was found murdered in her apartment in Athens Alabama on November 30, 2012. No one has ever been arrested in connection to the murder. Her murder is the only unsolved murder in the history of the Athens Pol
Sharon Wellington was found murdered in her apartment in Athens Alabama on November 30, 2012. The cause of death was multiple stab wounds. No one has ever been arrested in connection to the murder. Her murder is (or was, as of September 2018) the only unsolved murder in the history of the Athens Police Department. Who was Sharon Wellington? Most of what I’ve been able to figure out about Sharon comes from what is publicly viewable on her Facebook page, and there are hundreds of status updates that are publicly available. I’ve not even seen any that are only visible to friends of friends. (I actually have one mutual friend with her.) But I also tend to think that there are some things that aren’t publicly viewable for whatever reason: Although there are birthday wishes visible on her wall from 2010, there aren’t any from 2011 and 2012. Her Facebook page is pretty sparse from December 2007, when she posted her first status (“is at home”) through October 2010. Posts and tags from 2008 and 2009 put her in the Charleston, South Carolina area, while a post from January 2009 indicated she was looking for work. A comment on a post from October 2009 said that she was working full time at a gas station, selling Avon, and taking an online class. Her Facebook mentions that she went to a World Bible School, which according to its Facebook page is in Cedar Park, Texas, about 20 miles N-NW of Austin, but their courses seem to be online, so I think this is probably what she was referring to. I haven’t been able to pin down exactly when she moved to Athens. Even the articles around the time of her death were vague about this, and there’s just not a lot of publicly available information to go on. (Some articles said that she had lived in Athens for “1 to 2 years” at the time of her murder, while a later article said 1 year.) Based on her Facebook page, she had some connections to the area as early as July 2010, and had several by October 7, 2010, which was her 30th birthday. This is based on accounts that posted to her wall—in July, an account from the north Alabama area posted to her wall, and then on her birthday, several accounts from the area posted to wish her a happy birthday. One news article mentioned that she had connected with some people from the Athens area online and moved because she thought it would be a good place to live, so it’s possible that she didn’t live there then, and only new these people through Facebook and other online venues. After moving to Athens, Sharon became a member of Southside Church of Christ, which was located in Rogersville about 22 miles to the west of Sharon’s apartment in Athens. An article written soon after the murder said that she didn’t have any ties to the area, and that Southside “became her home, and its congregation became her family”. She didn’t own a car, so she rode to services every Sunday and Wednesday with members who lived in Athens. By all accounts she was an active, valued member of the church which averaged attendance of about 150. She frequently helped with Sunday morning breakfast. I believe that she was definitely in north Alabama by December 12, 2010, because she mentions in a comment to one of her statuses that she attended Southside—the church in north Alabama that she was a member of—that morning. It’s unclear from her Facebook page if she was employed while she lived in Athens. Her Facebook page explodes on November 12, 2010, with multiple updates almost every day. Maybe it was always this active and this is just when she changed her privacy settings; I’m not sure. There was certainly something difficult going on in her life at this point. What she posts, for the most part, is less personal than the few things I found from before this point. It mostly consists of Bible verses, words from hymns, inspirational quotes, and video links to (Christian) music performances and sermons. (It’s not that these things can’t be personal, but the way they’re presented on her page don’t give a great deal of insight into Sharon Wellington the woman, beyond the fact that her faith was extremely important to her.) But there was certainly something difficult going on in her life in the week after Thanksgiving that year: “Some people are just not meant to be in your life, no matter how you want them to be.”, November 25, 2010 “Sometimes it’s necessary to step back and re-evaluate your life in order to make that necessary change. I just did and my change starts now.”, November 26, 2010 “(I am) Winning over Depression”, December 1, 2010 ----“I had a lot going on this years, I think the storms is almost over.”, (in reply to a comment on the above status) “is starting out better this month. Before New Years, new habits, loving it and feeling better and thank my Father above!!!”, December 2, 2010 “Sometimes words just won’t do I have to cry”, December 3, 2010 Most posts are not this, though. And there are a lot. Most are fairly generic quotes and such. There are some gaps where there is nothing. Again, I’m not sure if this is because she was offline, or because she made these statuses private, or because they’ve been deleted for some reason, but these dates show no activity: January 1, 2011 – February 10, 2011 June 29, 2011 – August 13, 2011 She was in the Charleston, SC area in June of 2012 and September 2012. I'm unsure if this is two separate visits, or if she may have moved back there temporarily, because there's a gap on her Facebook wall beginning June 28, 2012 through September 16, 2012. The Crime A News Courier article written a few days after her murder indicates that she last attended church services on November 25, and that friends from church were worried when she did not attend the service on Wednesday, November 28. However, a post from a friend to her Facebook wall from November 25 says, “Missed you today, hope you feel better!!”, which suggests that maybe Sharon was sick and wasn’t at church that Sunday. It is possible that the friend might have been referring to something else that she missed seeing Sharon at, but I briefly looked into the Facebook of this friend and based on several mutual friends that I have with this lady, I think it’s very likely that she knew Sharon from church. Initially, police speculated that she was murdered on the evening of Friday, November 30—her body was discovered later that night. Much of this seems to be based on a neighbor who heard a disturbance that evening. He thought it involved a different neighbor, who he then called to check on. She was fine, but she had heard it too, and thought it had involved him. Later that evening, police were at the apartments and Sharon Wellington’s body had been discovered. Based on her Facebook activity, and based on the fact that she was not at the church service on November 28, I think it’s much more likely that she was murdered sometime between the night of Monday, November 26, and the afternoon of Wednesday, November 28. Her Facebook shows several posts from November 26 (the final post was at 6:28 PM), and some activity every day for the entire month of November—often multiple updates every day. While she did have gaps in her social media activity that could be due to not posting (or privacy settings), it seems odd that the posts stop at this point and she’s found murdered a few days later. Police suspected that she knew the murderer or that it was someone she was at least comfortable enough with to let into her apartment, because there was no evidence of a forced entry. Very little information about the specifics of the crime have been released publicly. At one point, soon after the murder, police said that they had a person of interest in the case, but I’ve never been able to determine if they were even brought in for questioning. There are many things we don’t know: - Anything from the autopsy report. (Estimated time/date of death, exactly how the stabbing took place.) - Whether the murder weapon was found, and whether it was a knife from her apartment, or the murderer brought it. - When neighbors last saw or spoke to her. The Murder Location Sharon lived in Elmwood Apartments on East Elm Street in Athens. Elmwood apartments are low-rise, two floors. Most of the units are on small hills so someone going to an apartment has to walk up sidewalks and steps to get to each unit. The apartments are outdoor entry. Sharon’s apartment was in unit C-1, which consisted of eight apartments. It was one of those apartments where the entrances on each level are connected by a walkway. So, as you walk up the steps, the lower level has two apartments on the right, and two on the left, and then upper level also has two apartments on either side. Although I haven’t been able to confirm, based on pictures from the crime scene (shown at a distance in links below), I believe Sharon lived on the lower level, on the right side, in the apartment closest to the stairs. Another thing about Elmwood’s location: If you’re there it seems pretty quiet and secluded, and Athens is a pretty small, quiet city, but Elmwood is about a quarter of a mile from Highway 31, which runs north and south through town, and the Elm/31 intersection is about a quarter of a mile from an exit to I-65. About two miles in the other direction is Highway 72, which runs east/west through town. All of that to say, Elmwood Apartments are conveniently located for someone who might wish to get out of town quickly. They could easily be on the interstate in under five minutes and be in Birmingham or Nashville in a couple of hours. Final Thoughts We have very little to go on, based on what is publicly known. Sharon Wellington, in many ways, is an atypical murder victim, at least based on what we can know about her from her Facebook page. She didn’t seem to engage in behaviors that would put her at high risk for being the victim of a violent crime. Most, if not all, of her connections in the area were through a church. There have not been any other murders in the general area that have been tied to this one. There's a reward for information leading to the arrest and conviction of her killer. It was $5,000 but the governor increased it to $10,000 a couple of years ago. https://www.enewscourier.com/news/local_news/murder-victim-service-sunday/article_d67040de-8e93-5e47-a428-9efeae2a5602.html https://www.enewscourier.com/news/local_news/athens-police-guarded-on-murder-details/article_1b36e76d-ad5e-58f0-acb3-c0a4c33facdc.html https://www.enewscourier.com/news/local_news/athens-chief-wellington-murder-case-not-cold/article_1152c39c-4377-11e4-b64a-2fa35ea462aa.html https://www.waff.com/story/20241868/church-mourns-loss-of-murdered-athens-woman/ https://www.waff.com/2018/09/14/reward-increased-brutal-athens-stabbing/ https://whnt.com/news/breaking-athens-police-on-scene-of-a-homicide-at-elmwood-apartments/
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